babysitter..
POSTED ON: Thursday, June 14, 2007 @ 4:09 PM | 0 comments
okies. i noe that you are mad at me. i am so sorry okay that i didn't keep my promise cos i didn't post. i very busy lah =)). dun be angry aitess.fhew... i am currently babysitting my 1o yr old brother and my nephew whose 8 while my mum & dad went to the hospital to visit my nephew whose sick with erm.. i dunno some kind of meningitis. only God, knows wad disease that is cos i don't. so, its actually fun having you know the authority to ask them to do stuffs. well, thank goodness they didn't give me any problems. they did their work well so its pretty easy with me. lucky that they're not their usual self; the naughty-cheeky-playful brother & nephew. i want to thank God so much for making my work easier. so at least i could be relied upon. i can take care of them. see, its not that difficult. hahakz. so, i guess that i could give this babysitting thing another shot...next time.
well, me and elham. having a cold relationship lately. not talking to him much. and not 'layaning' him at all. he pleaded to me to ask me to forgive him but hey, can every mistake be forgiven? well, maybe you could but not me. but i have to admit, i am kinda sad this thing happen though. anyway, its not my fault though... its his. i thought that he kind of 'berubah' to be a much better person as in more innocent and can be relied upon. i totally can't believe it. all that i see in him the last time was only an act or in malay 'sandiwara'. biasalah, orang seni perr... nothing's very particular. duh! he said that he would do anything for me as long as i forgive and forget. well, i want to tell you something elham, i don't want you to do anything except to well, try to understand me. understand my do's and don'ts. my rules. you wanted me to be open minded and understand you but you would never understand me and maybe some of the people who is close to you. you went back to your old self didn't you? lying was your hobby back then and it was your hobby rite now. huh. i wonder why you're like this. i can't forgive nor can i forget if things like this keeps happening frequently. i am so sorry but i can't. it will take me an absolutely long time to forgive and forgive. so, don't bother to wait! you told me that you don't like us quarrel about small stuffs but why didn't you prevent it in the first place instead of giving me millions of lame excuses? why didn't you do that? you said that i was the one who quarrelled about small stuffs, but hello? who started it. pls admit your mistake lah and do something to sort of 'cure' it. i am sick and tired of you. well, elham. i have got to admit something to you. when i saw that you had sort of changed before, i decided to give myself a chance; just one in order to trust you again. but with this thing coming up, i don't think that i can trust you ever again. not at all. so please don't beg or plead or praise or wadeva to me cos i won't accept any apology. i am very dissapointed in you. i wish that you know that...
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