one degree.

POSTED ON: Saturday, November 28, 2009 @ 9:55 AM | 0 comments

Satria Perkasa - The 4 eligible bachelors. You people did it!

POSTED ON: Thursday, November 26, 2009 @ 2:36 PM | 0 comments

i dont want just anyone to hold.

POSTED ON: Wednesday, November 25, 2009 @ 12:44 PM | 0 comments

hello.

im like multi-tasking now. talking to elham and telling him about my life and also hearing to music at youtube. sighs. sighs. sighs. haha. i guess i am addicted so David Archuleta's 'A little too not over you'. Perhaps, this song will be the theme song of my life. Haha, whatever.

Everyone at home is pretty excited for tomorrow. That includes me as well. (: I remember the time when i got mine. My, the first person that i hugged was my mum. Then, i hugged all of my close friends. It was really a Kodak moment for me! Gosh, I swear I was grinning that much 3 years ago till my jaw aches. I hope history will repeat itself again tomorrow, only better. Haha.

Thinking about it now, I believe that those moments were worth cherishing. Like really. Haha. Sighs. I miss Meridian Primary. Alot.

someone told me just now:
when fighting,
its not about winning the battle.
nor if its about losing it easily.
its actually about having the courage to step out of the comfort zone that im in
and show everyone that you can overcome it.
the results of the battle is the next thing to worry.
what you should have asked yourself is whether you have done enough to conquer the territories.

thank you for the advice, el. you know i owe you. and thank you for giving me your views. (:

they say, laughter is the best medicine.

POSTED ON: Tuesday, November 24, 2009 @ 9:30 PM | 0 comments

hello.

just returned from Yishun. collect Aleem's computer that was sent for repair. and im laughing hysterically now. cos of some random facebook comments that i received from my friends. i swear that my mum just gave me 'that look'. she must have thought that i am out of my mind or something. sighs. amaliah is just so random this days.

went Pasar Malam. kind of boring. I got sick of the whole thing. now, the pasar malam isnt as nice as before. like omfg. really. and mummy is being nice to me today. cos she let me play the comp extra time. i so love her can? her mood is kind of good today. spare me.

didnt i just tell you that i laugh a lot today? oh wells, i surely did. even watching an advertisement on tv today can make me laugh like nuts. and aleem is cracking me up with his lame jokes. but i hate the second one involving the slime thing though. its pretty gross, if you ask me. and there's another word that actually sums it all. but i hate to say it here. okay, whatever.

i am craving for double chocolate frappe.
i am craving for chocolate cream chip at Starbucks.
i am craving for Auntie Anne's pretzels.
i am craving for oreo donuts.'

now, im wondering why i keep getting hungry at night. sighs.

actually, im sort of bored to the max now. i didnt know what to do. i am not in the mood to talk to anybody at all. im starting to feel irritated with the littlest things that's happening around me. at times, i wonder, what the hell is seriously wrong with me? haha. sheesh. i must stop blabbing. like gosh.

i guess im done.
at least, for now.

with loves.

Boy,
im tired of feigning a happy smile.
im tired waiting for the unanswered verdict.
im tired of missing you with each passing minute.
im tired of everything.
but here i am,
longing to hear your voice.
longing to read your words.
longing to get through each day feeling stronger than before.

PS: i need a knight with a shining armour. Okay... random!

Boy, you're hard to miss.

POSTED ON: @ 4:14 PM | 0 comments

The happiest place on earth.

POSTED ON: Monday, November 23, 2009 @ 12:58 PM | 0 comments

hello everyone.

still feeling pumped up after yesterday. haha. must be the adrenaline. that's why im like so high now. haha. anyway, this weekend had been a pretty good one actually. cos all of us had so much fun! like seriously. haha.

to kick start, let me just tell you first that this will be a long post. so, please, bear with me.

Saturday, 21st November 2009

That's Bright Kids Concert Day! So yeah, woke up early, meet up with the sisters (Akh & Ati) then proceed on to Paya Lebar Auditorium to help out for the concert. Decided to stay for the performance by Bright Kids Pasir Ris only. So yeahs. Cos we don't really know what to do after that. And there's this one really cute girl who kept crying. I was like hugging her and everything. Trying to pacify her to keep quiet. And she kept crying and crying saying that she wanted her mummy. Her name's, Ashley, I think.

Ashley: *Crying, like real bad* I want my mummy! Mummy!
Me: Sssh. Don't cry. Later mummy come okay. Pretty girls don't cry okay?
Ashley: *nodding* Mummy will come?
Me: Yes. Later mummy will come. Now, mummy go 'work' first. Don't cry okay?
Ashley:  and she finally quietens down, thank god.

haha. not bad eyyhs me? can hush little kids down. I might make a good mummy someday! HAHA. Lol. Okay, who was I kidding? I guess. That's me. Able to comfort people and hush them down but when I cry, haha. I expected to be hushed down as well. Funny.

After that, outing with the babes. To Kallang Leisure Park to play bowling. Okay, that day wasn't a pretty good one. Cos none of us strike, at all. But we still had fun, nonetheless. And we camwhored alot. Trust me.

Sunday, 22nd November 2009

Madrasah in the morning with the wonderful people. Laugh my hearts out with my laughing pills, Farah & Hazirah. Haha. Sofea didn't come. :(

Then, afternoon was Kak Dyana's 21st Birthday Party. Omg. Held at SAF Changi Chalet. There's alot of food and games. Didn't really took part much but became the camera woman instead. Haha. So yeahs. Oh, but acted a little. Thank god, didn't have to sing! Pheeww. Oh, and our family won the Champions for the Inter-family games. Happy lahh seyyhs.

As for the games, there's quite a lot. Umm, bowling by the beach, acting, musical buoys, toss the buoys, talent quest etc etc but I guess, my personal favourite would be the 'Sehati tapi adakah Sejiwa games?' which is for the mummies and daddies. Aunty Zan, the games coordinater asked about their favourite food and everything and see if the hubby really knows the wife and vice versa. So yeahs. One question was about how our parents meet and everything. Cute lahhs.

Haha. Oh wells, let the picture do the talking now! Visit my multiply for pictures for the following events:
- Bali Thai
- Legacy Project.. Happy Toilet or Not?
- Late october- Post exam activities
- Celebrating the achievements of Shahirul
- Bright Kids Concert & Outing with the Sisters
- Kak Dyana's 21st Birthday

Im still over the moon.

Aleem's PSLE results will be on Thursday. Dub..dab...dub..dab..gosh, i think i need to see a heart doctor. Along with my family, we're like so nervous waiting for the verdict- the most important one ever! Scary! So, let's just continue to pray hard.

im done.

with loves.

Celebrating the achievements of, well, people.

POSTED ON: Friday, November 20, 2009 @ 8:15 PM | 0 comments

Nur Zulaikha

POSTED ON: @ 7:33 PM | 0 comments

For those who missed out the Sastera Remaja on Nur Zulaikha. Here is the story. Enjoy!

Nur Zulaikha

Oleh
Nur Amaliah Abdul Jamal & Nurul Akhyar BMS
Pelajar Sekolah Perempuan Tanjong Katong

'No, Justin! I will never allow you to do it! Never!

'How could I ever face everyone else? Mama malu Justin! Mama malu!'

Angeline membentak dengan marah. Wajahnya masam mencuka. Matanya galak menikam wajah Justin. Justin, anak bongsu kesayangannya. Namun kini, anak itu juga yang mengecewakannya. Anak yang ditatang bagai minyak yang penuh itu ingin mengubah pegangan agamanya. Katanya, dirinya telah diisi dengan Nur Islam.

'Mama, Islam tak akan mengubah diri Justin. Biarpun agama membatas kita, tapi I will still be your son! Nothing can ever change that fact Ma!' ujar Justin mohon pengertian.

JATUH CINTA

Dia akui jatuh cinta terhadap Islam setelah mendalaminya beberapa bulan ini. Barulah dia sedar bahawa dia telah memperolehi ketenangan yang dicarinya selama ini.

'Justin! Why can't you even try to understand me? Kenapa Justin tiba-tiba berubah jadi macam ini? Mama yakin bahawa ada seseorang yang telah mengubah diri Justin. Siapa dia Justin?

'I am really disappointed in you! Mama tak tahu mana Mama akan sorok muka Mama bila berdepan dengan Father James?' balas Angeline kembali. Wajahnya dipalingkan.

Kini, barulah dia tahu mengapa anaknya liat benar kalau diajak bersembahyang. Rupa-rupanya, hatinya telah diisi dengan Nur Islam. Dia benar-benar kecewa dengan anaknya itu. Kali ini, keputusannya muktamad. Justin harus membuat pilihan antara dirinya ataupun Islam.

'Mama!' kata-kata yang ingin dihamburkan kepada ibunya tersekat di kerongkong. Dia sudah tidak berdaya lagi. Namun, dia tetap akan memilih Islam.

'Mama, Justin mohon maaf namun Justin tetap memilih Islam,' bisik hati kecilnya.

Dia yakin bahawa suatu hari nanti ibunya akan memahami jua keputusannya itu. Ayah dan adiknya bersikap terbuka terhadap keputusannya kerana mereka tahu bahawa Justin kini sudah cukup dewasa untuk membuat keputusan sendiri terhadap masa depannya. Hanya ibunya sahaja yang masih belum terbuka hatinya untuk memahami.

Kini, telah tujuh tahun semenjak penghijrahannya itu. Namun, peristiwa itu masih lagi segar di ingatan seolah-olah baru semalam ia berlaku. Nama Justin Lee telah pun menjadi sebahagian daripada lipatan sejarah dalam hidupnya. Kini, dia telah menjadi Daniel Yusuf Lee Abdullah. Setiap kali, dia teringat akan peristiwa itu, air mata pasti bergenang di kelopak matanya. Dia akui bukan mudah untuk melalui semuanya. Namun, dicekalkan juga hatinya untuk menempuhi hari-hari yang mendatang dengan penuh tabah.

GADIS ISTIMEWA

'Daniel! Awak mengelamun, ya?' suara lembut si gadis menyapa gegendang telinganya. Gadis manis yang bertudung itu tersenyum kecil tatkala menghampirinya.

'Oh, awak Zulaikha. Mana ada saya mengelamun? Saya sebenarnya sedang mengambil anginlah,' balasnya kembali.

Gadis kecil molek itu tidak berkata apa-apa. Matanya yang bundar turut sama menghayati alam sekitar yang indah.

Nur Zulaikha. Gadis manis ini dikenalinya sewaktu dia baru memeluk Islam. Gadis inilah yang banyak membantunya. Dijelaskan kepadanya beberapa perkara penting tentang Islam yang kurang difahaminya. Bagi dirinya, gadis ini cukup istimewa.

Di kala Mamanya seolah-olah membuang dirinya daripada hidupnya, gadis itu yang ada dan menenangkan dirinya. Gadis itu jugalah yang banyak menasihatinya agar banyak berdoa agar suatu hari nanti hati ibunya akan terbuka untuk menerimanya kembali. Gadis itu sentiasa ada menemani hari- harinya yang sepi.

Sedang asyik menghayati pemandangan yang mengasyikkan itu, gadis itu bersuara.

'Daniel, awak pernah tak mempunyai seseorang yang pernah rapat dengan awak tetapi tidak lagi kini?'

Daniel mengangguk.

'Ada. Seperti yang saya pernah beritahu awak Ika, semenjak saya memeluk Islam, ibu saya sendiri telah memutuskan hubungannya dengan saya. Kenapa awak bertanya begitu Ika? Awak ada masalah ya?' ujarnya lembut.

'Entahlah. Tapi, saya malu dengan awak. Saya tak tahu macam mana untuk menceritakan masalah saya. Tapi, saya benar-benar keliru.'

KASIH SAUDARA

Dia melepaskan nafasnya berulang kali. Untuk mencari kekuatan diri, barangkali.

Kemudian dia menyambung, 'Abang saya. Saya buntu melihat kelakukan dia. Sering sahaja pulang lewat malam. Kadangkala, pulang dalam keadaan yang mabuk.

'Saya benar takut andai dia sudah tersasar daripada landasan Islam yang sebenar. Saya hanya mempunyai Abang Syam di dunia ini. Saya tak mahu kehilangan dia, Daniel.'

Daniel terpaku. Tidak sangka gadis itu akan meluahkan juga apa yang mengusuti fikirannya itu. Sebagai teman, dia ingin cuba membantu gadis itu. Mentelah lagi, gadis itu telah banyak membantunya.

Dia akan menasihati abang gadis itu. Insya-Allah, harapannya agar hati lelaki itu dapat dilembutkan. Disuarakan pandangannya itu kepada Zulaikha.

'Saya tak tahu bagaimana untuk berterima kasih dengan awak kerana awak sudi untuk mendengar masalah saya. Saya sudah puas menasihatinya namun hanya sia-sia sahaja. Umpama mencurah air di daun keladi. Akhirnya, saya juga yang akan dimarahinya,' luah gadis itu lagi.

'Ika, sebagai teman, saya akan mencuba untuk membantu awak. Awak jangan putus berdoa Ika. Saya percaya suatu hari nanti, hati abang awak akan dilembutkan juga. Saya akan cuba membantunya sedaya-upaya. Awak jangan bersedih ya?' kata Daniel.

Risau pula melihat gadis itu asyik bersedih sahaja.

'Ika! Nur Zulaikha! Kau ni memang tak reti bahasa kan? Kenapa kau cerita kepada teman kau tu tentang aku? Kau beritahu dia segalanya kan? Baguslah! Bilang dia lagi!

'Segalanya tentang aku yang memang jijik pada penglihatan kau. Sudah tu, aku dapat nasihat percuma pula. Berdesing telinga aku. Kenapa kau lakukan begitu Zulaikha?' kata-kata kasar yang dihamburkan oleh Abang Syam pada suatu hari menyentak lamunan Ika.

Abang memang begini. Keras hati!

'Abang! Apa yang Ika lakukan adalah untuk kebaikan abang. Ika tak punya sesiapa lagi selain Abang. Mak dan Ayah kita dah lama meninggal, bang. Kenapa Abang jadi macam ini? Kenapa Abang berubah menjadi seseorang yang Ika tak kenal lagi?'

'Ah! Diamlah! Kau apa tahu? Sudahlah, aku rasa kau pergi bilang kawan kau jangan hendak memandai untuk menasihati aku. Faham Zulaikha?' kata Abang Syam dengan sinis.

'Ika tak faham kenapa Abang Ika jadi begini. Abang sepatutnya berterima kasih sebab kita semua ambil peduli tentang Abang. Sampai bila Abang hendak jadi macam ini?'

Sesungguhnya Zulaikha malu untuk berhadapan dengan Daniel, temannya itu. Memang niat mereka baik untuk mengubah Abang Syam dan menyedarkannya namun apakan daya, hati Abang Syam masih lagi sekeras batu. Namun, mereka percaya bahawa suatu hari nanti, hati Abang Syam akan terbuka juga untuk menerima nasihat mereka.

PENGHARGAAAN BUAT TEMAN

Sedang Zulaikha asyik melayan perasaan, telefon bimbitnya berdering menandakan bahawa ada panggilan yang masuk. Zulaikha bingkas menjawab panggilan. Alangkah terperanjatnya apabila dia disuruh ke hospital dengan segera.

Ya Allah! Dugaan apa yang menimpa diriku ini? Hatinya tidak putus berdoa agar semuanya selamat.

Setibanya di hospital, seorang wanita yang memperkenalkan dirinya sebagai Angeline memberitahunya akan apa yang terjadi. Air matanya merembes keluar tatkala wanita itu menghulurkan sepucuk surat.

'Zulaikha, terima kasih di atas segala-galanya. Kerana menjadi sahabat yang paling setia. Kau selalu ada bersama denganku tatkala susah dan senang. Terima kasih, wahai temanku. Warkahku kali ini agak ringkas sahaja kerana aku terpaksa bergegas ke lapangan terbang. Aku akan menyambung pelajaranku di bumi Sakura selama tiga tahun, Ika. Maafkan aku kerana tidak memberitahumu. Aku tidak mahu melihat kau sedih. Aku tahu, senyumanmu kini pudar kerana kau risau akan Abangmu.

'Percayalah Ika, kita telah mencuba yang terbaik. Kita berserah sahaja pada-NYA agar suatu hari nanti, hati Abang Syam akan dilembutkan juga. Insya-Allah. Ika, beritahu kepada Mamaku bahawa aku amat menyayanginya. Tiada apa yang dapat menandingi kasih sayang yang aku beri kepadanya. Sekian, Daniel Yusuf Lee Abdullah.'

Daniel Yusuf Lee Abdullah. Temanku itu memang baik. Dia berkorban untuk aku. Daniel telah menyelamatkan nyawa Abang Syam. Dia dipukul teruk apabila mencuba untuk menyelamatkan Abang Syam daripada kumpulan samseng itu.

Daniel! Hanya sekalung doa yang dapat aku kirimkan buatmu. Semoga Abang Syam berubah. Rasanya, kata-kataku ini tidak akan dapat menandingi rasa penghargaanku terhadapmu. Terima kasih, wahai teman...
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KOMEN PENGELOLA

Kekuatan Cerpen

1. Pertama kali, pengelola menerima cerpen hasil karya dua pelajar. Syabas kerana mempamerkan kerjasama yang baik dalam menghasilkan cerpen yang indah dibaca. Pembaca lain juga boleh bergabung tenaga dengan teman anda untuk menghasilkan cerpen.

2. Penggunaan bahasa yang indah, jelas dan deskriptif.

3. Jalan cerita yang menarik, bagaikan mampu disulam menjadi skrip filem remaja yang menarik.

Apa yang boleh diperbaiki

1. Plotnya mudah tetapi kesudahannya bagai penamat mengejut yang tiba-tiba dikenalkan untuk menamatkan cerpen. Kemungkinan konflik boleh disisipkan untuk menambah kehangatan cerpen ini.

2. Tidak banyak yang disentuh tentang kemelut di hati ibu (Angeline) yang anaknya menukar agama. Mungkin aspek ini boleh dikupas lebih mendalam.

with loves.

our sisterhood.

POSTED ON: @ 7:18 PM | 0 comments

this post is specially dedicated to a certain someone whom in the tagboard i asked to view my views in this post.

oh wells.

haha. i thought it was kind of thoughtful for you to bring it up about it at the tagboard. even if its at the tagboard at least, you made an effort to speak your minds of. at least, we have an answer for something. at least, this thing could still be saved somehow. oh wells, i don't know. but since you brought up, well, i thought might as well you know i comment something about it.

right. i guess, i am like representing the 3 of us here. unanimously obviously. i mean, i guess its pretty obvious that things were drifting apart for all of us this year. i thought that the change of classes at the beginning of the year would actually make us closer given the limited time that we spend with each other every single day. but like what we've noticed, things aren't going as smoothly as what we thought it would be.

i guess you noticed too you know. just like the others we don't say anything. just observing at how things are going in silence. perhaps, we're afraid. who knows we're the only ones that notice this but others seems oblivious to the fact. right? but then again, it turns out that some people notice it as well.

we've known each other for about 3 years. 3 whole years. i believe, well, strongly in fact, that 3 years will allow us to know each other better. our preferences, our learning styles, our personalities. so, honestly, who wouldn't be sad and kind of affected to see what we preserve and build up for 3 years all gone down the drain simply because we weren't that 'bonded' enough afterall. sighs, its sad isn't it?

weeks passed. months passed. but things were remaining the same as ever. but that is that. it happened already so i guess there's no point if you insisted to turn back the time. but for now, at least, i guess we could, you know, make the best of things. that can happen and might happen, if everyone is willing. insyallah.

so that's about it. we'll see how it goes when the term starts. but for now, let's just hope that there is still sisterhood in us. i am silently hoping, still.

with loves.

PS: im starting to miss the person who would hear me out, always. never fail to cheer me up & tell me to continue having faith once any problems of this kind hit me. fine, i guess i admit it now. come back soon, please.

Paparazzi.

POSTED ON: Wednesday, November 18, 2009 @ 10:28 AM | 0 comments

Good morning world!

Hahaha. Okay, i felt so famous today. So yeahs, akhyar and my cerpen's appeared in the malay papers (Berita Harian, pg 11 Sastera Remaja) today!  Woohoo! Happy bangat dehhs! Haha. So yeahs, hope you guys enjoyed the little story that we both wrote out of our free time!

Feel free to leave me your comments yeap! (:

Brief synopsis: Story title is 'Nur Zulaikha'. Story revolves around many themes like love, sacrifice & frienship. Its about always being there for the one that you cherish in life. Namely, characters involve are Daniel Yusuf Lee Abdullah (Justin Lee), Nur Zulaikha, Abang Syam and the mum, Angeline. To read the full story, grab your Berita Harian today or read it at Cyberita! (:

This story is specially dedicated to my best girl pal as well as my Tasha (our imaginary buddy. Hehes.) coordinator Nurul Akhyar BMS aka my co-writer as well. Haha. Let's continue to write more stories okay girl! Next, to my family, thank you for the love and support. I love you. And to my love ones, this story is for you. Thank you for always being there for me no matter whatever the circumstances is. I love you people alot. And to all the other people, sedaras, cousins, etc, this story goes out to all of you who keep urging me to write more! Thank you for reading & commenting! (:

Wow, this feels great!
With loves.

PS: family outing tomorrow. don't forget the camera, amz.

smile like there's no tomorrow, girl.

POSTED ON: Tuesday, November 17, 2009 @ 7:18 PM | 0 comments

unlimited, hmph, what only.

POSTED ON: Monday, November 16, 2009 @ 4:12 PM | 0 comments

aloha.

haha. so today's monday. wow wee. that fast. haha. anyways, what did i do today? wake up for subuh prayers, then, breakfast goreng pisang (yum! mummy's cooking is the best :) ) , help mummy with the housework (ehehmzz, i am a good girl you know) and then, watch 'The Proposal' - laugh my heads off cos office romance is kinda funny to see. how can it be that that person that you don't really became the person that you think of all of a sudden? hmm. nature sure has lots of surprises.

haha. basically, i was restless today. i went from room to room. opened cupboard to cupboar finding anything and everything that i could do. gosh, i cant seems to focus on one thing. im like doing one thing after one another.

and im dreading to use my phone to text people and reply some texts cos of the phobia coming from the previous bills. boomz. cos it all exploded or something. haha. then, i called SingTel and they said i had unlimited sms which meant that i could enjoy texting. walao ehh, cheat my feeling only.

stupid lurhs. and i might end up paying for the previous month bill with my hari raya money. haha. but dad says he'll help me pay. i love you daddy, cos you're so nice. aunty imah might give me chance anyway. i promise i wont use so much outgoing calls okay?? (:

here i am envying my own brother. like so happy like that. text here, text there. smile here, smile there. haish. i think the whole family knows what he's been up to these days. haha. maybe i should change and be more open about my life like him too eyhs? haha. how's that?

okay, what present should we give Kak Dy for her upcoming 21st birthday? i need ideas please.

tong hua, tong hua, tong hua!

with loves.

the theory that is so not true.

POSTED ON: Sunday, November 15, 2009 @ 8:46 PM | 0 comments

hello.

finally, im breaking free from the emotional turmoil that's like so close to me these days. today's tauhid exams says it all. thank God that i survived madrasah exams. haha. last paper today. insyallah, can score! hopefully can get straight As this semester. please! (:

madrasah today was fun. kind of hilarious. farah made me laugh alot today. she and her thursday memories. and hazirah and her OBS. gosh. she rock my sundays lahs. haha. and sofea also. you guys are my laughing pills. someone did something weird during tauhid exams today. weird to the max lurhhs. i guess, i was choking my laughter. seriously. not nice to laugh at people right? hehes.

anyways fa, i understand what you went through. i hope you figure things out. love ya babe. (: you know that im always there for you! cheer up okay. =)

watched chinese dramas with mum today. don't know why but it seems that we're glued in front of the tv watching one after another chinese dramas relying only on the subtitles to understand. surprisingly can laugh so loud some more for this story. too funny, i guess. and actually teared for one of the stories. those were really moments that were worth cherishing.

and my mum & dad were creating the 'Amaliah & her future' theory. Lol. They were like trying to make a combinations of my future children's names since aleem just told them his 'list'. gosh. so crappy can? they were like combining my name with all the possible people that were associated to me right now. sighs.

i seems to listen to tong hua now before im like able to sleep. hmmph.

with loves.

today, today's the day.

POSTED ON: Saturday, November 14, 2009 @ 12:55 PM | 0 comments

hello world.

watching 2012 with family today. at downtown. haha. aunty yah most probably following. its been quite sometime since i last watched a movie. the last time was 'Imagine That'. haha. reminds me of Tasha. haha. my imaginary friend with akhyar.

lately, my love ones have been telling me that i seems to get worked out at the slightest things. oopsie. haha. where did that bubbly girl in me dissappeared to anyways? guess i must learn and practice the 3 golden rules.

1. RELAX, haha. it seems that i no longer know how to do that these days.
2. SMILE, okay, maybe i have to practice alot more of this
3. BALANCE, yeap, its all about that.

i know you care. thank you.



with loves.

diam diam jatuh cinta.

POSTED ON: Friday, November 13, 2009 @ 5:45 PM | 0 comments

okay.

im so addicted watching Heliza AF5's version of Diam Diam Jatuh Cinta. Haha. Seriously. Its so nice lurhhs. Hahas.

legacy project pictures at Multiply!

I so can't wait for Sunday. Even though there's madrasah exams. Hahas.
But Farah, Hazirah & Sofea are my laughing pills. I love you guys, alot.
Oh yes, and the guys as well. Some are hilarious. Hahaha.
You know i know.

Perhaps I should just give in this time.
Cos im tired of keep doing the same thing.
I guess, i have to break free from the comfort zone that im in.
In a way, i guess they know better.
And they have sacrificed alot.
I guess now its my turn to compromise.
After all, what they wanted is for my best.
Smile, and tell everyone you'll be okay.

Bali Thai!

POSTED ON: Saturday, November 7, 2009 @ 11:20 AM | 0 comments

SAWADIKAP!!

haha. okay, forget about the moody attitude. Haha, told you i was crapping.

Anyways, Bali Thai pictures are at my MULTIPLY.

With loves.

With each step i take, i tried to push myself forward.

POSTED ON: @ 10:15 AM | 0 comments

Adapted from Farah’s blog. Something that I thought was meaningful. Really. It totally sums up whatever I’m currently feeling.



I remember singing and dancing to the Barney ‘I Love You’ song and all that gazillion other childish songs. Haha. Random okay. So cute. Those were the innocent days. These days, I seem to get more disillusioned with whatever I saw. Especially with the people around me.

Scary lahs. I thought that they’re different from those I perceive them to be but I guess I was wrong. I thought I could put some faith in them but in the end I was the one who need to restore back my own faith.

True enough, I’m torn between what was and what could be.

You’re neither friend nor foe,
But I can’t seem to let you go.
One thing that I know, is that
You’re keeping me down.

Thank you so much, for everything.
I’m going to wake up from my own fantasy – the one where everything lives happily ever afters.
Now I know better, happily ever afters are just created to lure me in.
So, goodbye memories.
Welcome to my new life. (:

Im crapping.
Okay, whatever.
With loves.

PS: you need not need to know what happened to guess why I reacted like this. Just know that things happen for a reason. Or else, it wouldn’t have happened.

Ku bawa wajahmu walau diriku jauh.

POSTED ON: Thursday, November 5, 2009 @ 11:04 AM | 0 comments

hello world.

oh wells, i guess its been ages since i last updated this blog yeahs. haha. have been busying myself. notice the keyword busying. so yeahs. umm, this week is filled with SPAs and mother tongue Os preparations. haha. im too busy even to have time for my own self anymore. okay, maybe im like lying here. but whatever. nothing seems so true to me these days anyway. aren't i right?

a lot of changes have been taking place in my life. i guess those who were really close to me knows what happened. But whatever it is, i shan't state it here. Why tell the world everything when i just keep it within me? i need to refocus myself. I need to go all out this time. Yeay, amaliah.

matters of my own heart are just the last thing that i need to bother with right now. i can't believe at how my life story is slowly unfolding. It's like this novel that i read. like oh my god, why oh why. But i guess, in a way I kind of expected what was coming. Be it sooner or later. Given the conditions. Everything. I need a break from whatever I'm feeling. But the problem is, I can't keep lying to myself and deny those feelings. Maybe its just me. Haha, maybe all that I felt were illusions. That's what my 'rents keep telling me these days anyways. Im like in a world of my own. In this lala land that i created. I know better now. All that i felt were illusions. Really, illusions. Maybe, not.

honestly, i guess i should have listened to Akhyar. haha, she seems to know what might be coming. Hahaha. Terror or what? okay, whatever. I guess, im going to just forget the matters of my heart for the moment. But i just don't understand. Amaliah, you are so complicated.

i hope someone just understands this.

with loves.
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