that says it all, emo princess;

POSTED ON: Thursday, October 30, 2008 @ 5:19 PM | 0 comments

Surveys, oh yeahs.

POSTED ON: Wednesday, October 29, 2008 @ 8:36 PM | 0 comments

LOL. was really bored while waiting 2x5 dol to start so i decided to do some random survey at blogthings. hehe. i saja jer choose the provocative topics. LOL. for fun jerr.

So, here's one.

Quiz 1: Do men find you a challenge?
Men see you as an attainable challenge. You know how to make your man crave more of you.But you also know when to show some interest back.You're good at keeping your guy guessing.And over time, you'll let him know how you really feel

Quiz 2: What's your name hidden meaning?

Infocomm Borinng! >#<

POSTED ON: @ 8:15 PM | 0 comments

hello.

oh wells. infocomm today. had this project meeting. but none of the other groups came except well, our groups. hahaha. kira ni, macam enthusiastic lahh. scoffs. as if. we were the most laid back group. shit. but really. haha.

anyway, woke up at 6.30am today. i think im gonna wake up early every day of the holidays. mum told me that "anak dara, tak bagus kalau bangun bila matahari dah naik. nanti pemalas!" so, i guess no matter how tired i am. I still force myself to get out of bed. went to the market @ Central with mum. on the way back, saw really cute Meridian JC guys. hotness! i so want to go Meridian JC lah seyy. :D

right. so, that was pretty much what had happened for today. met Seri in the bus on the way home. exchanged stories with her. and i mean, really2 cool stories. nevermind lah, no need to tell. not so important to you pun. but somehow, i guess, its important to me. hehe. shh.

hmm, was crying after i read this poem just now. yeah. yeah. i know that im your emo princess. even the slightest thing can make me cry. its just so sweet.anyhoo, the theme is about romance and ALLAH swt. so swwwwweeeettt. AWW! Nikmatilah okay.

Pictures to brighten up my sombre mood(:

POSTED ON: Tuesday, October 28, 2008 @ 8:39 PM | 0 comments

AKU bukan hamba cinta.

POSTED ON: @ 3:46 PM | 0 comments

yes. i believe that i made the right decision.
no doubt and i wont even turn back.
its not worth it i tell you.
i guess its hard. but i'll be strong and try.
after all, the people that i love are always there behind me.
i may fall once, but not anymore.
you do your stuff and i'll do mine.
and i guess, that's it.
don't ask me on and on again, why
cos this is it.

i dont want to rely on all those praises to keep me strong.
i want back my old self.
confident and self reliant.
honestly, i dont need you.
i knew that it was a mistake right from the beginning.
oh god, how i wish that i didnt know you right from the start.
cos all of this is a MISTAKE.
time and time again i repeat, that its a mistake.
no doubt, it is.

i guess its all done and over with now.
you dont know the real me yet.
but all i wanna say is that,
AKU bukan hamba cinta...
and im stronger now than ever! :)

-hahaha. i guess, i made this clear. final. no more changes. :D

Hadiah Dari Hati

POSTED ON: @ 12:02 PM | 0 comments

Okay. Here's the lyrics to Kris Dayanti's song "Im sorry, goodbye." I thought that the lyrics are like really meaningful now. So, here it is. The bold parts are the ones that i feel are really synonym to whatever im feeling now. Its like those emphasised parts. Enjoy! :)

Compromising - erm. maybe not.

POSTED ON: @ 11:17 AM | 0 comments

maybe im stupid. stupid, cos i believe in giving people second chances. i tried to be compromising and nice this time round to make up for my sarcastic-ness and for throwing my tantrums all around freely. i thought that i would be strong this time in facing all of these but no from what im facing now i dont think im strong enough to overcome it. i dont know what im feeling. and i dont like it when you're being all pushy and over concern towards my life. No, you dont get me wrong. I appreciate whatever that you think that you had done for me. Really, really and there's no doubt about that. But, please. I dont like it when you keep bringing up the subject about 'love' and everything. you are not like the one that i used to know since primary school. i dont know lah but it seems that you have changed a lot. i think i prefer the old you - the harsh and always sporting one ; not like the one now...

i guess that i have given this matter much thought. ive thought about this matter for some time already. and i think that ive decided on the best possible thing that i should do. at least, for now. i am going to go my own way. away from all the problems. its not my fault cos i tried to tell you how i want everything to be but you never failed to bring up the same boring old subject again and again. boring taw. so, i guess now i got to decide on what's best for me. im sure that you'll be okay... on your own. i want my old life back, please. its a tough decision but ill try to keep up to it. i want to jadi amaliah yang dulu. Amaliah yang carefree and cheerful and lively and not amaliah who's being bounded by all of these problems.

Tapi, am i selfish to let the 9 months ago history repeat itself again, only with a different person?
Am i supposed to compromise again?
entahlah. All i think of now is that everything is a big mistake. No doubt, it is a big mistake!

Confused.

POSTED ON: Monday, October 27, 2008 @ 6:38 PM | 0 comments

Oh God, was like really sick today. down with fever and a high temperature. i cant make it to AMIRA's belated birthday celebration cum watching HSM 3 with clique. So, let's see what i did. Play with Aleem, Read novels/storybook, eat medicine and then sleep. I sleep for what seem like ages and im like still zoinked out now. If only, im not sick, then i can go with clique. Bummer betul. Hahaha. So practically, I was on my own. Sick in bed and complaining why im sick for million times today. Terseksa betul. :( Sorry guys, if i screw up today. :#

And i swear i looked pale and messy. Very horrendous. My lips are pale and i dont have the appetite to eat.Hahaha. And my neighbour 'complained' that i like lose weight already. Haha. It must be because of the fever that i had from yesterday. Even eating 1 panadol sounds like a chore to me cos i just couldn't swallow it. Oh god. I thought that the sleep that i had just now would somehow 'cure' me and make the sickness disappear. But i guess, i was like wrong. Im still sick even as i pen down this whole thing.

Anyhow, is there like infocomm on wednesday and thursday? Haryati say got. In any case, I can only make it on wednesday cos thursday i have CIP with those kiddies again. I must get well again if not for myself- its for their sake. I want to meet Irfhan - hehe.

Well, at least on the whole there's a plus point for me being sick. Hahaha. First and foremost, thanks to akhyar (my used to be partner) for her concern in asking about my condition. And yes, thanks to (amira-knows-who) for endless concern. Hahaha. Don't worry about my condition lah okay. Sakit sikit jer. Tak yah risau-risau. Thank you so much for your concern. Im sure that i'll recover soon. I appreciate all that you had done and im sorry that i couldnt like pay back all of it. Its not easy to payback all of this you know. I guess, silently i got to admit that yes, that someone's concern towards myself really made me happy. I don't know how i could ever repay back all those words. No amira, its not about what you state in the message about me being urm 'sell expensively'- translate to malay. Its about my future and myself. I know that yes, that someone really meant well. But, urm nevermind. I just cannot do it. Its not the right time yet. I guess all that i want to say now is that Im confused. Confused with what i want in life and what that has already happened. Entahlah. I tried to resist like a lot of times, until i have no more reasons to give. What is wrong with me? And, what is wrong with my life? oh god. oh god. oh god.

i guess i'll end here for now. This quote's like really meaningful. "Semakin kuat aku ingin mengusirnya, semakin juga dia datang memasuki hatiku..." What am i supposed to do? Gotta go my own way? Hmmm...

Ciao babes.

Re-organising

POSTED ON: @ 9:11 AM | 0 comments

alrite. i am back after what seem like ages. with a new blog look. suddenly, i become patriotic with green - fyi, the colour that i used to hate. anyway, yeahs. a new blog look for me to pour my rants out and a new tagboard. so, rajin-rajinlah tag ye. urm, yes. you people who bothers to link me just link lahh okayy.

anyhow, HAPPY BELATED 14th BIRTHDAY to DEAREST AMIRA. hahahaha. finally, you embark on the 14 year old journey. haha. and AKHYAR's one is coming real soon! you rock truckloads babes. ily. hahaha.

madrasah yesterday was alrite i guess. oh, and the interesting thing that happened in madrasah yesterday would be the presence of a 'mat-saleh wannabe' by one of the guys who proudly ''bleached'' his hair bright orange. haha. fyi, nickname is golden monkey. sajak sangat lahh tu. madrasah people had been really fun. the guys were being extraordinarily lame. i wonder if those ustazahs can like stand them. and i think that personally, shafiq is the "King of Lameland''. seriously, well at times it might be funny. but not always. i wonder why there's no hot guys at madrasah. hmm... i hope next year would be better. madrasah exams is like in 3 weeks time and i have not even prepared. haha, pandai arr tu...

watched HSM 3 already. the storyline's kinda sad. you know what people? i said i won't cry at the last day of school right? and yes, i didn't though i could feel the tears stinging on my eyes. but finally, i let it all out at the theatres. i think that people must have wondered why i have like red eyes after watching HSM 3. haha. im such an emo princess. anyhow, HSM 3 is a much watch. A tear-jerker for somee. I love the song 'can i have this dance' the best! very meaningful. now i know, how hard it is to say goodbye to people. its not easy, definitely. haha. you people go watch, i don't want to pop your bubbles. nanti dah tk best!


last friday, had kindergarten outing with Bright Kids. we went to Lim Chu Kang. I get to be like a 1 day teacher. The experience is totally worth it. I get to feed the fish and played longkang fish with those kiddies. haha. macam deprived childhood gitu. LOL. i snap some photos but i guess i'll upload those later yeahs. anyhow, i was asked to take care of Zi Yi - cute and kecoh. A K1 kiddo. Oh, and i think i fall in love with Irfhan... kecik-kecik dah cute. and he's name is coincidentally similar with (you-know-who). haha. old stories. im so gonna post those later.

went back to meridian on friday for some Alumni meeting. met Shafie again for the second time. he looked so different than when he graduated in 2003. really. but he's still the same old him. =) haha. called Siti to tag along. she looked soooooooo different like physically.okay, let me be open in this. she's not like this when she graduated in 2006. she's now like 'appearance concern' or something. what's with those eye liners and make up and constantly checking herself at the mirror? its not as if we're going to shopping or anything. like HELLO, we're going back to school! She's not who she used to be. i guess, i have to accept the fact that people changed - for the better or for the worst for whatever reasons. SADLY. :( oh, and on the brighter side, i get to meet MR IDHAM. hahahaha. ultimate hottitude. omg. omg. omg. i so miss my cher' who would constantly make lame jokes. haha. remembered the time in p5, when me and seri wanted to go to the ladies and we wanted to seek permission from him. He was like 'Who's the most handsome teacher at Meridian?' before he allowed us to go. I enjoyed being in his form class. really. really.

and as for today, before i end of. you might have seen 6 Diligence 2006 class photo that i got from dear Cherie <3>selalu ajer aku related dengan orang-orang class ni. If its 1 tkpr taw but its not JUST 1. haha. i think 6D 06 played a role in my p6 life creating - wonderful and bittersweet memories. amaliah oh amaliah...

alrite. i guess that's it.
ciao, babes.

Raya Pictures

POSTED ON: Saturday, October 25, 2008 @ 10:27 AM | 0 comments

my upcoming events

POSTED ON: Wednesday, October 22, 2008 @ 4:25 PM | 0 comments

Love TRIANGLE

POSTED ON: Sunday, October 19, 2008 @ 3:51 PM | 0 comments

im back for an update. well, term 4's like ending soon. that just tells me how much time im left with my besties. so, it means that i have to make the best out of it. which explicitly meant that i HAVE and NEED to close one eye on all the unhappy situations. :)

huhss. im really really pissed off. effingly pissed off with people in particular those who i don't know, look too desperate? and im like stuck in the situation clueless about what im supposed to do okay. i haven't heard from a certain someone for about 9 months. oh god. and i thought that things are like okay now. but, urm. they are not. and im sorry if i've hurt anybody. and now, the yesterday memory's like haunting me again. ahh. its always me and its always my used to be guy friends. shiit. im like confused with whatever God has put in store for me. shiit. why must it always be me? ahh. i think its YOUR fault for bothering me first. and please, dont blame me for whatever that has happened okayy? its not my fault that you're stuck with a lousy fate. i mean, what am i suppose to do?

oh, and im sorry for the lack of updates. i promise that ill update often now. can? i feel guilty for chucking my blog aside. heh. chatting with 2 lovelies now. at least its better talking to them. they always make me feel at ease.

tomorrow, will be having a small clique farewell during recess. i want to let them preview my video. and maybe, exchange of gifts. oh god, i dont know what to give. shiit lahh. haha. and we had infocomm today. me and amira had this 'roller coster ride' since morning. let me tell you.

1. we came for the WRONG timing for INFOCOMM! strike 1...
2. we cross the wrong road to get back to SCHOOL! strike 2...
3. and lastly, there's a lot more small strikes coming after one anotherr. CRAPPP!

okayylahh, i guess that this is enough for today. im starting to have icy fingers.
ciao babes. with loves <3

exams over

POSTED ON: Tuesday, October 7, 2008 @ 12:20 PM | 0 comments

alhamdullilah. exams are safely over. sorry for the lack of updates. had been pretty busy mugging and doing revision. and yes, i was lucky that its all over. i hope that all my hard work, sweat and tears wont gone down to waste. insyallah, everything will be smooth.

anyway, a notification here. i guess, i wont be updating to you very often. cukuplah kalau sesekali but my posts will be super lengthy. takut nanti kalau selalu update tak ada orang nak baca pula. hehe. and terima kasih to you guys who still continue to read my blog. ingat juga korang pat aku ekhs? hehehe. so, first things first. salam lebaran to all my muslim friends. maaf zahir & batin lah. bagi sesiapa, yang i never meet face to face to mohon maaf, i hope that you accept my sincerest apologies here. i sedarlah, that i am not perfect. afterall, its not only me. but its everyone. i know that i tend to be frank and direct so yeahs, from the bottom of my heart, if i pernah offend any of you reading this, then sorry.

since, exams are over. i am still thinking of the activities that i can do to spend my time. most probably write in my private diary (alahh, the old fashion one) update to you or simply spend time being engrossed in my novel. what are you people planning to do? ingat, spend your time wisely. and i guess, i just realised something. i want to spend time with all my friends erm, yang close ajer before we seperate. the prospect of US seperating cant be explained. so, i guess i want to spend my time wisely with them. might as well make the best out of it. :)

and i am still the same kecoh me who loves to make nonsensical jokes. for my friends who had known me for 2 years or more, you people would have known by then that i am a very talkative person. i talk, i joke and at times i laugh rabak-rabak. okay, maybe not. i tend to be serious and give you that 'no nonsense' look if mood tak baik sikit. and i cant stand people who are generally weird in any sense or they're obsessive. tak boleh angkat beb.

god, i really dont have any idea what to write already. share to you about any guys? erm. maybe not unless you really want to know. then tag me. okay, i guess i run out of ideas already. but i guess, let my blog work this way now. you tell me if you want me to update. or else, i guess i'll just update in my personal diary. heh.

PS: i want to make something special for a certain group of someone.

hmm, okaylah. kita jumpa lagi di lain lembaran.
take care and assalammualaikum.

salam sayang
amaliah
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