About overcoming difficulties
POSTED ON: Monday, December 19, 2011 @ 7:50 PM | 0 comments
hello world.
This entry won't be lovey dovey but it's going to be a realistic, I don't know, outpour of my feelings? At least, I hope it will be. I have to learn to grow up because I am not a kid anymore. I was reading bestie's blog about her late mum and it was such a touching piece that i cried after I read the whole thing. Okay, I know that I usually will cry for the slightest difficulties that happens in my life even the smallest things but really, reading the words on her blog truly touched my heart. It's about how much a daughter misses her mum and I can relate to that because I am a daughter as well.
Anyways, after reading that entry, terus rasa insaf and I feel so valuable to my parents now. I don't want to take them for granted. Because, while they're still here, I suppose I should really work hard and make them happy. Afterall, all that they want is the best for me. And Ibu selalu cakap, 'Ibu & Ayah got nothing to give you. We are not rich so we don't have a company to pass down to you. All that ibu & ayah have are education opportunities which you should use wisely as an entry pass to your dreams.'
Honestly, my parents are strict people. And they are especially strict with me because I am their only girl. Only princess lah katakan. Haha. Anyways, jokes aside, my parents control me and restrict me - I have curfews, I am not allowed to go out that often unless it's with my own family members, my clothes have to pass a certain approved criteria and some other criteria that they had put up for me. At first, rimaslah juga. Because I feel that I am stuck in a golden cage that they created - I only know enjoyment when I am with them. But, I overlooked the fact that they care for me and don't want me to go astray. But really, it's only with them that I feel truly safe wherever I go because I know that daddy and Aleem can always protect me and be my knight in shining armour. Hahaha.
Anyways, I know that people question why 3/4 of my time is always spent with my family members. Always. And I reserve my weekends solely for them. Especially so these days, I spend time more with my sick aunty. Temankan dia pergi shopping, do whatever she want's to do. As long as she's happy, I am happy too. I really want to always be there for her just like how she's always there for me. Because, I want her to know that she's not going through this alone. That I am there and forever will be just for her.
Memang kadang-kadang timbul Maliah punya selfish-ness. Maliah juga insan biasa yang tak lari dari kesilapan. Sedaya upaya Maliah cuba untuk hindar dari berperasaan sedemikian. But to make up for that occasional bouts of selfishness, Maliah will try to spend even more time with these wonderful people.
And for that dearest sister of mine, I know it's not as simple as me telling you that you should be strong because for all I know the strength that you show in front of people is just a facade of the reality that you're experiencing. I know it is going to be a truly difficult and trying period for you and your family after her passing but I will be there for you through it all just like how you are always there for me. Sister's at heart, never to part right? So, susah senang sama-sama okays? Let's continue to work hard for our As next year and go to the university of our choice and continue on the journey to pursue our dreams. Let's not lose hope and faith although it might not be easy next year. But I guess, I am thankful that no matter what happens, I still have you around. I don't know what I will do without you.
Lastly, I know that you miss her terribly just like how I miss my grandparents that I never had a chance to meet since I was born. I know it might be a little weird and awkward - How is it you miss the people that you never ever had a chance to meet before and talk them? But I do, I really do especially when I see some of my friends have both their neneks and atuks but I am only left with one nenek which I love with all my heart. Insyallah, let us continue to pray that she will be at peace there. Afterall, God loves her more. Kalau rindu, don't forget to keep her in your prayers yeap? It's the best remedy for a heart that misses someone dearly and terribly. (:
Love always.
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About overcoming difficulties
POSTED ON: Monday, December 19, 2011 @ 7:50 PM | 0 comments
hello world.
This entry won't be lovey dovey but it's going to be a realistic, I don't know, outpour of my feelings? At least, I hope it will be. I have to learn to grow up because I am not a kid anymore. I was reading bestie's blog about her late mum and it was such a touching piece that i cried after I read the whole thing. Okay, I know that I usually will cry for the slightest difficulties that happens in my life even the smallest things but really, reading the words on her blog truly touched my heart. It's about how much a daughter misses her mum and I can relate to that because I am a daughter as well.
Anyways, after reading that entry, terus rasa insaf and I feel so valuable to my parents now. I don't want to take them for granted. Because, while they're still here, I suppose I should really work hard and make them happy. Afterall, all that they want is the best for me. And Ibu selalu cakap, 'Ibu & Ayah got nothing to give you. We are not rich so we don't have a company to pass down to you. All that ibu & ayah have are education opportunities which you should use wisely as an entry pass to your dreams.'
Honestly, my parents are strict people. And they are especially strict with me because I am their only girl. Only princess lah katakan. Haha. Anyways, jokes aside, my parents control me and restrict me - I have curfews, I am not allowed to go out that often unless it's with my own family members, my clothes have to pass a certain approved criteria and some other criteria that they had put up for me. At first, rimaslah juga. Because I feel that I am stuck in a golden cage that they created - I only know enjoyment when I am with them. But, I overlooked the fact that they care for me and don't want me to go astray. But really, it's only with them that I feel truly safe wherever I go because I know that daddy and Aleem can always protect me and be my knight in shining armour. Hahaha.
Anyways, I know that people question why 3/4 of my time is always spent with my family members. Always. And I reserve my weekends solely for them. Especially so these days, I spend time more with my sick aunty. Temankan dia pergi shopping, do whatever she want's to do. As long as she's happy, I am happy too. I really want to always be there for her just like how she's always there for me. Because, I want her to know that she's not going through this alone. That I am there and forever will be just for her.
Memang kadang-kadang timbul Maliah punya selfish-ness. Maliah juga insan biasa yang tak lari dari kesilapan. Sedaya upaya Maliah cuba untuk hindar dari berperasaan sedemikian. But to make up for that occasional bouts of selfishness, Maliah will try to spend even more time with these wonderful people.
And for that dearest sister of mine, I know it's not as simple as me telling you that you should be strong because for all I know the strength that you show in front of people is just a facade of the reality that you're experiencing. I know it is going to be a truly difficult and trying period for you and your family after her passing but I will be there for you through it all just like how you are always there for me. Sister's at heart, never to part right? So, susah senang sama-sama okays? Let's continue to work hard for our As next year and go to the university of our choice and continue on the journey to pursue our dreams. Let's not lose hope and faith although it might not be easy next year. But I guess, I am thankful that no matter what happens, I still have you around. I don't know what I will do without you.
Lastly, I know that you miss her terribly just like how I miss my grandparents that I never had a chance to meet since I was born. I know it might be a little weird and awkward - How is it you miss the people that you never ever had a chance to meet before and talk them? But I do, I really do especially when I see some of my friends have both their neneks and atuks but I am only left with one nenek which I love with all my heart. Insyallah, let us continue to pray that she will be at peace there. Afterall, God loves her more. Kalau rindu, don't forget to keep her in your prayers yeap? It's the best remedy for a heart that misses someone dearly and terribly. (:
Love always.
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