mixed emotions
POSTED ON: Thursday, February 7, 2008 @ 12:47 PM | 0 comments
LOL. i dont know why i feel very emo-yy all of a sudden. lots of things have been happening in my life uhs. and i am just all sad and tired and confused. you see, i have always been writing to you the nice stuffs in this blog. -well, at least if you people realised it.i dun seem to be telling you guys the sad and confused and annoyed part of it. i don't even think i can. cos i dun even think i got the strength too. Oh God, please pity me. Bring me to the time where i'll achieve never ending happiness...
GOSH. i seem to realise that this 2008 amaliah is more happy at school than at home. and i still wonder why. i seem to have change. i have become the quiet type. just minding my own business. interaction and communication is not what i really did nowadays.
i am sick of everything. i am sick of how things turn out for me. i am sick of facing the never ending challenges in my life. i want peace now. i want something back that can make me smile and be my old jovial self again. i want my old life back.
can i have it back without anyone or anything destroying it? can i have it back soon all in 1 piece? oh God, please give me the strength. i am soo weak now.
you people may not understand what on earth i am writing about and you people need not go the extra mile and try to understand what crap i am rattling on here. let me be the one that knows. let it just be me. but please, i beg and i plead. can YOU give me back my life again? my strengths, my happiness, my cheerfulness all together?
is this what every teenage girl like me have to go through?
is it meant to be like this?
confessions. that's what this is all about.
just confessions. with drips and drabs of mixed emotions.
oh sheesh. i am confused.
*sighs* and *double sighs*
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