you will never really understand a person...
POSTED ON: Saturday, August 22, 2009 @ 1:31 PM | 0 comments
hello.
hmm. first things first. selamat menyambut hari pertama Ramadan! (: alhamdullilah, terawih yesterday was fun! haha. really. we didn't get to the airconditioned area in the mosque but it's still okay though. not that hot as i imagined it to be. and i marvel the fact how everyone was so united yesterday. pretty impressive actually. haha. sempat ekhs i tengok cute guys yesterday? hehe.
tuition today. the usual. nothing very fun happens during tuition these days. not like last time. man, i miss my used to be tutor a lot. he damn fun lah can? sighs. and now it's just never ending sums to practice. merepek. but i guess that's the price i have to pay in order to at least improve in my mathematics.
anyways, akhyar, hope your mum gets well soon okays. take it easy and be strong when face with this challenges. i know you can though. had faith in you. anything just text me okay babe? hehes. and im pondering over this question now. urms, why is it like most of my friends have already overseas plans though the holidays aren't even here yet? Akh might be going to Bali/Jakarta for he economics thing i presume. and some other people are going somewhere else. and then, i'll be all alone in Singapore. lonely, lonely me. why is it the Brunei trip is cancelled? damn it. stupid H1N1. it was suppose to be a nice birthday present and on top of the fact that i was waiting 3 years for it. sheesh. i shall not comment much but it's just plain upsetting. and aleem is like busy for his PSLEs this years so parents haven't even plan yet. but like usual, it will always be 'some parts in Malaysia' lurhs. duh. nevermind, i shall never talk bore you to tears with my holiday plans that are so 'i-dont-wish-to-talk-about-it'. i'll be the true blue Sg girl and stay in my homeland. sad.
why oh why isn't lit class that drama enough? you know, bring us to see the awesomeness of Shakespeare plays or i don't know bring us to places abroad that contains elements of those sort? and oh my god, why am i being so whiny today? complain so much. sheesh, amaliah, stop it!
you know what? i think i'm just going to stop what i'm doing. it's like getting more and more complicated. and i keep having the feeling that my heart is lying to me. but they say, how can you not even trust your own heart? but all of this seems to happen, super early. really eyhs, i don't know. part of me wish you knew what i was feeling all along but part of me still feels that it would be nice to just keep it a hush hush thing. and that's what i know and im definitely doing. im going to still keep it in a hush hush. it might sound a little bit weird to just hide what i'm feeling but it might be more worse to come to terms with reality. cos, i know that reality would never be that simple. i know. and besides, im not willing to face the consequences should that ever happen. maybe i shall with this when im much more mature enough to handle this kind of issues. afterall, im still fifteen. and the funny thing is, everyone told me it was obvious. my brother, included. why is it i continue to not let myself see and admit the obvious fact? it's definitely a question to ask. i have no idea what you might be thinking and i have no idea why i'm becoming like this. is it because of urms? i dont know. see, i can't even explain myself anymore. it's just too difficult. maybe things would be better if we can just continue being like this. i don't know how long this lasts but let's just wait and see. even hitting the RESET button again might not make things any simpler. oh whatever, can i just end it here?
then again, thinking about it on a second thought, maybe I was the one who had overlooked our friendship. it's possible you know. heck, i dont want to know. i can never really understand a person. maybe its true what my cousin told me just now, humans are sophisticated individuals - unique & complex. and hence, its impossible to lay stereotype judgements on them. maybe, i'll learn as i grow up. hopefully i do else i could be tangled up in this kind of mess again. confused with my own feelings.
with loves.
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you will never really understand a person...
POSTED ON: Saturday, August 22, 2009 @ 1:31 PM | 0 comments
hello.
hmm. first things first. selamat menyambut hari pertama Ramadan! (: alhamdullilah, terawih yesterday was fun! haha. really. we didn't get to the airconditioned area in the mosque but it's still okay though. not that hot as i imagined it to be. and i marvel the fact how everyone was so united yesterday. pretty impressive actually. haha. sempat ekhs i tengok cute guys yesterday? hehe.
tuition today. the usual. nothing very fun happens during tuition these days. not like last time. man, i miss my used to be tutor a lot. he damn fun lah can? sighs. and now it's just never ending sums to practice. merepek. but i guess that's the price i have to pay in order to at least improve in my mathematics.
anyways, akhyar, hope your mum gets well soon okays. take it easy and be strong when face with this challenges. i know you can though. had faith in you. anything just text me okay babe? hehes. and im pondering over this question now. urms, why is it like most of my friends have already overseas plans though the holidays aren't even here yet? Akh might be going to Bali/Jakarta for he economics thing i presume. and some other people are going somewhere else. and then, i'll be all alone in Singapore. lonely, lonely me. why is it the Brunei trip is cancelled? damn it. stupid H1N1. it was suppose to be a nice birthday present and on top of the fact that i was waiting 3 years for it. sheesh. i shall not comment much but it's just plain upsetting. and aleem is like busy for his PSLEs this years so parents haven't even plan yet. but like usual, it will always be 'some parts in Malaysia' lurhs. duh. nevermind, i shall never talk bore you to tears with my holiday plans that are so 'i-dont-wish-to-talk-about-it'. i'll be the true blue Sg girl and stay in my homeland. sad.
why oh why isn't lit class that drama enough? you know, bring us to see the awesomeness of Shakespeare plays or i don't know bring us to places abroad that contains elements of those sort? and oh my god, why am i being so whiny today? complain so much. sheesh, amaliah, stop it!
you know what? i think i'm just going to stop what i'm doing. it's like getting more and more complicated. and i keep having the feeling that my heart is lying to me. but they say, how can you not even trust your own heart? but all of this seems to happen, super early. really eyhs, i don't know. part of me wish you knew what i was feeling all along but part of me still feels that it would be nice to just keep it a hush hush thing. and that's what i know and im definitely doing. im going to still keep it in a hush hush. it might sound a little bit weird to just hide what i'm feeling but it might be more worse to come to terms with reality. cos, i know that reality would never be that simple. i know. and besides, im not willing to face the consequences should that ever happen. maybe i shall with this when im much more mature enough to handle this kind of issues. afterall, im still fifteen. and the funny thing is, everyone told me it was obvious. my brother, included. why is it i continue to not let myself see and admit the obvious fact? it's definitely a question to ask. i have no idea what you might be thinking and i have no idea why i'm becoming like this. is it because of urms? i dont know. see, i can't even explain myself anymore. it's just too difficult. maybe things would be better if we can just continue being like this. i don't know how long this lasts but let's just wait and see. even hitting the RESET button again might not make things any simpler. oh whatever, can i just end it here?
then again, thinking about it on a second thought, maybe I was the one who had overlooked our friendship. it's possible you know. heck, i dont want to know. i can never really understand a person. maybe its true what my cousin told me just now, humans are sophisticated individuals - unique & complex. and hence, its impossible to lay stereotype judgements on them. maybe, i'll learn as i grow up. hopefully i do else i could be tangled up in this kind of mess again. confused with my own feelings.
with loves.
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