hello.

i'm back with a post again. went to doctor yesterday cos mum says my coughing is getting quite bad. so, guess what i got? antibiotics that tasted ultra bitter, cough medicine and running nose pills that promise to make me feel like sleeping beauty after that. and i kept complaining. and complaining. cos, i hate taking medicines. i wish i wasn't sick. *sighs*

i have been thinking about a lot of things. and i found this quote while i was reading my novel. 'God has his reasons of doing certain things. And certain people are in your life because of certain reasons too. You just have to search deep in your heart, for the reasons. Cos, once you choose to remain oblivious, you would be unable to appreciate them truly only to regret once they walk out of your life someday.' And it kept me wondering. I also just finished reading this piece of article that i found online on the various types of people. It just intrigues me.

Alot of people enter my life somehow. And its the little little things that they do that made me appreciate them even more. Their love and concern are just some things that made my day. Seeing them happy makes me happy too. But, i kept wondering why some people are there for only a temporary period. And it always has to be someone close to me. Does it really mean that i couldn't depend much on anyone? Cos someday they'll move on with their life and i'll be where i am again. I don't know but that's what i keep noticing.

Looking at how certain people react to certain situations puzzle me. Some choose to keep on following the norms ( doing what other people do, not much of a firm standpoint) whereas those who were more bold, tried to make their choices known clearly. Some, however, choose not to disappoint others and follow the flow. I wonder why they enjoy doing that. Perhaps, every choice has its own consequences. Someone told me before that you have to fight for your own happiness, but, how to fight when you choose to back out from the battle and succumb to the situation? But, then again, maybe the situation is difficult. That's why some just choose to follow it and not 'test the waters', if that's how one might put it.

As for those who keep following the norms and doing what other people do, is it really the best choice? They're just in the middle, claiming to be the neutral party and not taking sides. But life requires you to take risks isn't it? What's the point of always trying to be in the middle, unsure and is neither governed by the mind nor the emotions? Please pardon me, if i said this. But I am just wondering. And i still do. Hmm, there's always a reason for everything right? Maybe, some just choose to be like that. Maybe.

Then, how about those who are fickle in everything? They think they've made their decisions. Said either yes or no, only later to change their minds again. Aren't they just equally the same as those who doesn't even have a standpoint? But, i think, the neutral parties are a whole lot better than the fickle people. Cos, its easier for you to make plans with the neutral rather than the fickle. Sighs. I don't know.

And again, some are strongly governed by promises. To them, following promises is a must. Which i thought wasn't quite bad except that most of the time, they just don't have the heart to put their thoughts first before fulfilling the promises. Promise is a big big word. Will these people put their own desires first above the promises that they made to others? I guess, the answer lies in them.

You might not have noticed that this people do exist in your life. But the article said, they do. One just has to search deep down. Really mehs? Thinking back, maybe, its true what the article said. These people do exist in my life somehow ekhs?

I want to go out but its raining so heavily today. Sighs. Aunty Yah came my house today to bring us out. Haha. See first lah, maybe later ask them go East Coast or play kite at Sengkang. Hehehes.

With loves.