2nd week of madrasah exams... =)
POSTED ON: Sunday, November 11, 2007 @ 2:56 PM | 0 comments
hello.sori for the lack of updates. i am busy mugging for my madrasah exams lahh. =( nyways, arab's left for now. bummer. arab is sooo difficult. i need a tuition in arab! tutor anyone? :)
anyway, went to nenek's house yesterday. met nurbayah on the way there. i miss her truckloads lahh. like really. so, we all naik bus together. i sat with her and we have a quick chat. about boys, her whereabouts, my whereabouts... and other stuffs. gosh, it was really fun! & kak mel's going nenek's house too. so. yah. we basically have long hours of fun. pure fun.
ohh. & i am not going to keep you updated about my private life anymore by writing long& emotional granny stories to you guys. this gonna be the last one... i hope. heck care lahh. so yesterday evening was practically upsetting. huh. sms-ed yani yesterday. we're pretty close lately. so, she told me something which i expected to hear but i hope not to hear. & i believe her for she's my so-called cousin. but, i guess that it was too much.too much for me to know. i just don't want to get involved anymore. i don't want to play tht pretend game. i want the truth. is it too much for me to ask from you? who were we actually?
*sighs* i am trying to forget what has happened and i don't want to bother myself with what is gonna happen next. i don't want to fall for you again...at least not until i know the truth. why do you knock my heart again? why are you letting me believe in stupid fairytales where everything's gonna end 'happily ever after' ? why are you letting me believe tht you're the one? why? why do things end like this? i am confused now. i don't know where's the ending neither do i know where's the beginning. & i am not suggesting to you why things are like this now. you should be smart enough to know... to whoever it may concern...
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