i don't know they care... but i'm glad they do(:
POSTED ON: Wednesday, June 11, 2008 @ 12:09 PM | 0 comments
hey. well, i thought of changing to a new layout today but i guess not. it's complicated you know to restart the whole long process again.i've 'bloghopped' some of my clique's blogs to see what they're up to this holidays. and i just seem to realise that they care about me. like a lot okay. akhyar knew how i felt without the presence of my best friend during my birthday. she knew the fake smile that i put when i was cutting the cake. i guess it's not the usual me there. but someone who's totally transformed. am i right akh? basically, not having a best friend to celebrate that occassion with you is one of the reasons why it dampened your mood. another reason is that, well, you're 14 and you're in the middle of attention. when i was cutting the cake. many memories of my primary 2 party drifted past my mind. how that someone used to be there singing that birthday song and i was grinning- really grinning till it hurts. how everything changes now. 7 years can change the course of things and 7 years can change people. that's how powerful God is. but the memory is evident, and i can't help but remembering. yes. sadly enough.
and i guess, what i wrote now will be a reply to one of amira's posts that mentions about me and my best friend issues. thank you so much dear for willing to understand how i felt. the best friend post has nothing got to do with you guys in our clique but has got to do with that someone whom i called best friend since we're in primary. and amira dear, thanks so much for willing to offer a listening ear for this friend of your here. you guys in our clique are everything to me now. you guys gave me the strength and confidence to reach beyond my boundaries. and because of you guys, i am still the amaliah that i used to be. you guys made me laugh till i cry. hope our friendship lasts cos you people means so much to me. ily all.
before i continue. a disclaimer here. this posts's gonna be long and bits and pieces of it are going to be emoyy. so, bear with me. if you can't then it's okay. maybe, i've elaborated the reasons as to why i'm upset with her. i mean, don't tell me that the word best friend is created to trick you into a whole series of downfall. i believe in having best friends. do you? and i believe that best friends won't only last for a year or 2 years but forever. and i guess my theory's proven. my mum's primary school's best friend came to the partyy. my dad's best friends came to this occassion. even my brother's best friend's whom he had issues with earlier came. he came okay despite the issues. that's what i call best friends. time doesn't change them but made them wiser and more mature in handling life's challenges. but i guess, mine doesn't and i wonder when she will be just like them. am i suppose to give her chances??
so, yesterday out of the blue she came back in my life. sms-ed me to inform that she invited me to some kenduri of her younger brother's. should i go? after she did this to me, should i still go? she begged me to come just exactly like what i did. she begged and begged and made me promise that i'll come despite giving excuses how busy my schedule is. i'm in dilemma. what should i do?
enough of that for now. too much thinking about it is making me bonkers. O.0 anyway, celebrated aunty imah's birthday yesterday at mak's place and swensen's changi airport. i shan't comment about the food. anyway, kak mel's family is invited too. that means i get to meet, wak ipah, wak amat, kak mel, kak 'emon' and abg wan. abang wan is so effing funny can? me and kak mel camwhored the whole nite. gerek seyy. ohh, and aleem mixed this gooey-gooey stuff that i'm sure you'll be disgusted. he mixed the chilli sauce, with mayonaise, with butter, with salt and pepper. and the gross thing is that? aunty yah tasted it and she commented that it's nice. but it's gross can? the colour is like the cheese that we eat with nachos or maybe the colour of thousand islands. gross. :/
rite then. i guess this it.
see you in the next post some other time.
assalammualaikum. [ceyy... alim nmpk] +_+
much lovess,
amy
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