Compromising - erm. maybe not.
POSTED ON: Tuesday, October 28, 2008 @ 11:17 AM | 0 comments
maybe im stupid. stupid, cos i believe in giving people second chances. i tried to be compromising and nice this time round to make up for my sarcastic-ness and for throwing my tantrums all around freely. i thought that i would be strong this time in facing all of these but no from what im facing now i dont think im strong enough to overcome it. i dont know what im feeling. and i dont like it when you're being all pushy and over concern towards my life. No, you dont get me wrong. I appreciate whatever that you think that you had done for me. Really, really and there's no doubt about that. But, please. I dont like it when you keep bringing up the subject about 'love' and everything. you are not like the one that i used to know since primary school. i dont know lah but it seems that you have changed a lot. i think i prefer the old you - the harsh and always sporting one ; not like the one now...i guess that i have given this matter much thought. ive thought about this matter for some time already. and i think that ive decided on the best possible thing that i should do. at least, for now. i am going to go my own way. away from all the problems. its not my fault cos i tried to tell you how i want everything to be but you never failed to bring up the same boring old subject again and again. boring taw. so, i guess now i got to decide on what's best for me. im sure that you'll be okay... on your own. i want my old life back, please. its a tough decision but ill try to keep up to it. i want to jadi amaliah yang dulu. Amaliah yang carefree and cheerful and lively and not amaliah who's being bounded by all of these problems.
Tapi, am i selfish to let the 9 months ago history repeat itself again, only with a different person?
Am i supposed to compromise again?
entahlah. All i think of now is that everything is a big mistake. No doubt, it is a big mistake!
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