on HIATUS for a moment though
POSTED ON: Tuesday, November 11, 2008 @ 6:17 PM | 0 comments
hey.i figure out that this is the 2nd update. new skin if you had noticed though. haryati wants me to change it. i guess that this one's okay. not emoyy and most importantly not green. heh. (: so, haryati wad do you think of it? tag me. :D
oh wells. important news to tell. im gonna go on HIATUS till my mood's more stable. take a long break and figure things out a little. things around me are getting kinda rough. so maybe an escape is the best thing for the moment. and after the HIATUS i promise you that this current amaliah will change. maybe to someone who's more strong. remind me if i forget though. but the frankness still remain. i thought i was okayy and keep holding strong and everything but somewhere deep down it says that im not whatever i said earlier. im not okay. and most importantly im not strong enough. i wont cry at whatever that's happened cos i just couldnt. dont bother asking why.
im not the type who will share with the whole wide world every problem that im facing. i wont go to you and say 'you know what? i feel sad today' or 'you know what? im like so pissed with...' or 'you know what? i think i feel...'. i dont do that. normally, its not easy to speak my mind out. and i felt that certain things should not be spoken. like feelings. its my own personal thing. i dont like it when people pushed me for answers and having repetition of that same old name. i wonder why you were so pissed with me. just dont deny it lah alrite. through your choice of words i know. haha. im not stupid, mind you. but i wonder why the answer is important to you though? you came again, after all these days without saying hi and terus ask me that question. what is this alrite? i asked you this and you didnt answer. what different would it make if i admit it or not? you tell me, what? im hurt that you're putting the whole blame on me. i already told you that its a personal thing. you dont need to give me all the hoo-hahs. i guess now im satisfied. you go on with your life and i shall mend mine. i cant believe thats how low you can be. i dont want to be in the middle of your stupid game with whoever. now theres no mistaken with whatever im feeling. hatred and hurt. at you. confirmed. :$ there, i said it.
im finding a new obsession though. what's up with me and purple? yes, yes. the dear amaliah here is obsessed with any purple thing. purple wallpapers. purple pens. purple diary. thank God, my blogskin's not purple. you should see my room. everything's clad in purple. that ought to keep my mind off things for a while. :D im loving it. oh, and im obsessed with roses and lavenders. especially the PURPLE ones. (:
while im on hiatus, indulge yourself in those pictures of the kids. i want to have a peaceful mind now. the holiday shall do me good. :D
BYE.
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