hello.

no updates yesterday cos was out for Learning Journey to OgilvyOne Singapore. And guess what? I was drenched throughout the whole journey. Cos it was raining so heavily. Haha. I looked like an all shriveled up tree. So cold. And people were staring at me throughout the whole MRT journey to school cos i was so wet. Gross.

Anyhow, the learning journey was ultra cool. Cos it gives us alot of exposure on the world of the infocomm people and what they did. so, basically, Ogilvy is a worldwide based company. I mean worldwide. Just go anywhere and there's Ogilvy. Cool right? Anyhow, its a company that did advertisments for clients like Nike, Levi's. And the adverts that we saw were just ultra awesome. It can totally capture the consumer's attention. And they have to work in line with deadlines which were pretty tight. And we got to see their workspace too. Its so nice and cosy. So family like. Haha.

Guess what? One of the ladies who climbed the Mount Everest worked there. It was really a proud moment for us to meet her. Cool lahs. Haha. Its like so Girl Power can? Hehe. Oh yes, not to forget, we get to meet the Singapore based CEO as well. Cool. So charismatic. Wow. I wish I was a CEO one day leading some company... *Sighs*Sighs* Berangan lagi... Haha.

Alright, as of now, I totally can't wait for tomorrow. Cos, there would be family chalet that Cik Awi (El's dad) organised. Haha. Then, get to meet the wonderful people again. So excited. We camwhore alot tomorrow okay people. Oh, and I want to swim! Its been ages! Haha. But first things first, madrasah in the morning. I hope the skies would hold for us tomorrow and not rain. Please, please, pretty please.

So, today. A conversation with mum & dad taught me alot of things. Cos, I went breakfast with them at McD while waiting for Aleem to finish madrasah.

Me: Kenapa kadang-kadang kita lose temper kita only to realise that, its actually not a very nice thing to do?

Ayah: Sebab kita letak emosi kita dulu sebelum kita gunakan minda kita.

Ibu: True. Tapi, kadang-kadang kita marah bersebab. No one gets angry without a reason kan? We get angry because we care about the person. Kalau you tak kisah, you tak peduli anything pun about the person. But because you kisah, you marah that person because you want the best for her.

Is it true?

Thinking about it made me realise alot of things. Alot of things that i refuse to know and neither do i acknowledge. I have to admit that like any other human beings in the world, most of the time I am governed by my emotions rather than my rational minds. I do things on impulse and not by planning. I get angry and irritated without thinking why people actually mean when they said something. Simply, because they care.

Oh wow. Haha. I realised this few days that I am so temperamental. I get high very fast and I get pissed of fast as well. Perhaps, I'm sick. That's why. Haha. But then, after I let it out on the people around me, who were close to me, I realise that I had made a big mistake. Kesian kan? I didn't realise that they care and I got so worked out that they're trying to force me to do things that I insisted I hate to do. Like eating my medicine, for example. Oops. Guilty. :P Sorry.

However, when people care, I don't know why, but at times I doubted the sincerity. Especially people aside from my family. I know that that's not very nice and I learnt that today. Perhaps, I should just accept the fact that at that moment, at that time, whoever they are, they care. And I should thank them for that. Because, its not easy for them to care right? :D

Perhaps, my past has made me more conscious and wary of people. That's the reason why I kept doubting. The thought of having my past repeating again, pains me. I need to stop repeating my mistakes. I've always told myself that I'll be strong should my past repeat again one day. But face the reality amz - will you be that strong?

But they say, its only when your hardest hit that you'll know if you're strong or not. And sometimes, certain things will make you realise how strong you can actually be. Right? But i guess, i shouldn't mull so much and just take things as it comes. If i were to face problems, then solve it to the best i could. Other people had alot more tougher problems than me and they can be strong. So, perhaps, i could try to be to.

I am obsessed with Dealova. No wonder Siti Nurhaliza likes the song. Its heavenly nice! (:

"Aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu.

Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang selalu bisa kau rindu"

with loves.