tuition[:
POSTED ON: Thursday, June 19, 2008 @ 1:53 PM | 0 comments
*grins* there's tuition today, finally. for what seem like weeks. it's good to be back to doing maths. heez. anyway, tutor's return was pretty much awaited. i was rotting to death at home without nothing to do.okay, maybe i exaggerated a little on that part but hey, tuition's fun. and you know what, tutor gave me extra homework as a welcome gift. sighs. being a student's tough. oh yes, just finished reading Cinta Pertama for God knows how many times. after rereading it, i guess the story line has loads to teach me about. about love, about pengorbanan, about something that is just too hard to be forgotten. and in other words, this book actually teaches me how to survive under such 'conditions' ; kirakan it's so called a survival book. (:
so, it states that your mind controls everything. if you want to forget that someone or that tragedy that has happened, you can do it. but if you keep denying it, of course you can't. and one more thing if that person that you really admire leaves you without any news for quite sometime, then i guess that feeling is totally not worth it. it should be kept for the real someone who's gonna put you under their priorities in future. at first, memanglah maliah tak berapa yakin dengan petua yang diajar tapi lama-lama setelah beberapa kali cuba, alhamdullilah i feel more at ease. bolehlah, lupakan sikit. cuma yelah, jangan ada orang yang ungkit balik cerita lama. terus teringat dan tk boleh lupa. sighs. memang manusia ni lama. maliah can't even deny that. tapi, we need to work really hard so that we can push ourselves further even though deep down, we're not confident on what we're doing and what the future has in store for us.
yes, yes. call this a Grandma's story or a bedtime story. whatever. you would think all of this is just fake and totally not worth it as compared to other hot stuff like who's the cutest actor, or what's the new boyband but to me, i guess what has happened in the past is something that i should make amendments. many things happened in my life actually and people come and go. even nieces can become enemies and best of friends can have a cold fight. so the irony is that, it is possible. i have to learn that everything is not a bed of roses but obstacles. obstacles that God set up to test us. To test whether if we fall down, we will pick ourselves up or just sit, stare and cry. dan bagi maliah, setiap pengalaman ader keistimewaan tersendiri. dan yang peling utama, setiap pengalaman mematangkan diri ini.
that's all for now.
much loves,
amy
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