Baby girl, stand up & fight.

This is not some paradise.

Oh, it's just where we live.

hello everyone.

i think i know what is happening.

i think i can somehow figure things out now.

im so sorry dearest cuz, cos at times, i just let it out on you without purpose.

i know better now.

Things don't always change with a bang. Sometimes they change so gradually that you can't clearly pinpoint the last moment they were truly the same. i read everything. And i guess, i am fully satisfied with what i read. I know myself. Always jumping into conclusions. But having the proof that i read it for myself actually satisfies me. haha. (: seriously, you need proofs to convince me.

i am a very frank person. haha. and i think i know better now. i wonder what's wrong with guys this days. nopes, im not being feminist here but hey, where's the honest sincere truth & loyalty? all that i see in guys these days, are just sugar coated words. haha. trust me, even chocolates aren't as sweet as them. (: fake, fake & fake.

i don't know how to say this. but i truly couldn't comprehend what is it that people like you want this days. tak sangka kan? haisshh. i thought that you were different but it turns out that you are just like the others only you are a better version then them. sighs.

i disagree with what Abg Mizi (my cuz) said. Its boys who killed romance & not us, girls. Ask what words they use now. So, come on? Who's the prey & who's the predator here?

i am excited to see what life may bring.

however,
i still want you to know that i appreciate you as my listening ear.
i still want you to know that i enjoyed the memories.
i still want you to know that i can laugh till i ache whenever at times, you're being really ridiculous.
i still want you to know that i still can associate the littlest things to you.
i still want you to know that we're still friends like we were before.
i still want you to know that i thank you for 'walking' alongside me when i have my problems.

i am over it now, once & for all. I can't continue lying to myself. If no one is going to make the decisions, then let me volunteer and do it.

I am happier now!

with loves.

PS: camwhoring aka 'photoshoot-ing' with fira & efa was the best yesterday. thanks alot to kak miya for being the photographer & also for lending us her wonderful camera! I can't wait for the pictures! (:

lovely.