oh my god, she's totally different since the last time i knew her.
POSTED ON: Saturday, July 24, 2010 @ 4:36 PM | 0 comments
you know what?i got the hell shock of my life when i read what you wrote. its so unlike you. i mean, i pictured you to be some innocent school girl that you were but i guess, you're maturing very fast. faster than whatever i could even imagine. and i am totally serious. i thought that you wouldn't go that far. but wow, you're testing their boundaries like to its limits. of course, i have no say in whatever you do. its your life anyway.
but, whatever you do won't be whatever i do. even if i wanted to test the boundaries, i wouldn't have gone that far. perhaps, i wouldn't even dared to. but woah, at such a mere naive age, you already tested it. to its limits. i bet your parents didn't know. else, they'll flip. i mean, who doesnt? cos, i bet mine would. who's parents would be THAT sociable?
you know its weird. its like there is this 2 sides of you. the nice nice kwai2 side when you're with me. when we shared our tales and laugh with all the other cousins. but i didn't know there is this other side of you as well. the more open side. i am not supposed to preach here okay? but i can't believe what i read. i blinked my eyes hard to make sure that it wasn't deceiving me. and its true. what you wrote were the true-est words.
but really, am i just the only one who still remain rooted despite everything that goes around me? but somehow, i just thank my parents for that. for keeping me rooted. for planting my feet on the ground. i wouldn't have traded for anything less. yes, its kinda strict but at least, they taught me to hold strong to my dignity and not to sway cos of the temptations around me. so what if people have everything? i know that i am still me. and that is what that matters.
it has just been 1 month since we last meet up but yet, alot of things has happened. since when did you get all so mushy and lovey dovey? since when did you just throw all the values that you told me you hold dear to? of respecting yourself and respecting the people around you. macam mana melayu nak maju if teenagers, like you, succumb to periodical temptations? things that happens need to have its limits alright?
i know that i don't have the right to comment everything. i don't even have a boyfriend to begin with. never ever had one. but its the best decision. at least, for now. oh wow. i don't know what to say anymore. perhaps, i should just keep mum and see how things unfold. but i hate to see you crying yet again and complaining to me about what might happen. i don't want to see you in that state.
you know i care about you, kuz. you know i do. i am so sorry if you happen to read what i wrote here. if you're shocked. i am more appalled than you do. i hope that you know whatever you're doing. i hope.
with loves.
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