It will be okay, this morning!
POSTED ON: Monday, January 10, 2011 @ 8:43 AM | 0 comments
well, kak miya is right. i do wake up especially early this morning. and i've been showing symptoms that im nervours. sweaty palms and pacing in my house for i don't know how many times. haha. i feel like as though i'm getting married today or something. omgg. cos, my heart is pounding like crazy. not because i am anticipating something that's not good but well, im hoping that i will meet those expectations that i set for myself.
cos ultimately, the only opponent that i had to overcome was myself. my fears. my confidence. it seems easy to teach and tell people here are the ways to be confident (eg: follow BLESS) but its difficult to tell yourself now when you're simply in the hot seat. insyallah, everything will go well. everyone had faith in me! that im going to pull through this just like how i pull through alot of things that happen in my life last year. and to my love ones whom i called yesterday to ask for your blessings and prayers and also to the few whom i visited (its like my family tradition to visit before any big things happen), thank you so much for praying for me. all of your prayers are really valuable to me. doa tu kan senjata orang mukmin?
as of now, its approx 5 hours 20mins to the time. i've totally given my best shot for this. so, i hope that i will be ready to face this. my papers, pens, brain cells, sweat, tears, time, sacrifices had to be totally worth it. insyallah. i'm equally as excited right now too. okay, i think i better end this. i can no longer string my sentences properly. hahaha.
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love always.
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