Meridian, not.
POSTED ON: Saturday, January 15, 2011 @ 9:41 AM | 0 comments
Good morning world!Guess what? I woke up feeling more screwed than usual. Haizz. Because for the last 24 hours, I end up feeling sad and depressed and moody and I started finding faults with people. Stupid hormones. And I don't even know why Im like this. Okay, so goals for today is to make things right with people. And yes, apologise.
She's totally driving me nuts with the birthday thing today. And she asked us to plan yet she wants to also join in. Um hello, like technically, you don't trust us? Because honestly, that's what it seems like. If you don't trust us, then can you please like do this yourself? I can't be bothered with this already. And its today, fyi. Maybe, I should just put my best actress persona that can surely mesmerize everyone today. Hmmph. Honestly, I don't give a shit about this anymore. Enough is enough okay. Stop wasting my time and your time by calling me. Whatever your actions now is enough to tell me that you don't even trust me. So, whatever. You said 'I count on you okay, Maliah?'. Yeah right lah. I bet a million times that you only count on yourself. Think that I'm no longer that darling of yours that you can count on for everything? Well, congratulations. You just uncovered the bitch in me. Ugh. Sabar amaliah, sabar.
And that meridian thing is driving me crazy too. Hahaha. But in a good way cos it encourages my poor brain to think. I need ex-meridians preferably my cohort to like share their study tips with the current P6s. Honestly, I could get my friends to do this. But here's the catch that my DM actually told me: must be a mix of GENDER and RACE and SCHOOLS. So, there's 3 criterias that I have to meet. Ahh!
I told mum about my problem and she suggested me to call all of the people whom she knows I have history with. That means, I have to call back um, you know who lah right. And here's the thing, she said, call the ones whom you're okay with and not okay with. As for those whom you had histories with, just be professional. Scoffs. Be professional mum? And what? Risk forgetting all that happened 4 years ago. Which is no. But she tells me that this will be the correct time for me to show that I'm back on my feet and that without him around, I can still do what I want to do and I don't even regret my decision. But seriously mum, putting the okay with the not okay will not be good. Or will it be? Hmm, maybe I should consider and rethink again. Then, can have another 'reunion'.
Should I go for feminine girl-next-door look today?
Maybe just once, I should dress up today. Okay amaliah, whatever it is that they say, always remember that you're a winner in your own league. Show them who you are girl!
Love always.
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