Far, far away.
POSTED ON: Monday, April 18, 2011 @ 5:51 PM | 0 comments
i just don't understand people. and i never could, i suppose. somehow, at the moment when i thought that they were still the same, they changed. and its the people whom i don't expect to change, changes. How ironic. Furthermore, its those people that daddy tells me i should look up to. But maybe just this once, daddy is wrong. I don't know how you can live your days in denial and only admit to what you had done now. I feel for her. Really and truly. It must have hit her hard. Once again, trust issues here. After all those years, now then you feign unhappiness. To be honest, I dont think that's fair.
I hope and continously pray for her. So that God gave her the strength that she needs when facing with this difficult period. It must not been an easy thing for her but I admire her courage to pull through each day with faith and patience. I know that you're hiding your sorrows beneath that strong exterior that you potrayed to us the other day. Come on, we're not kids anymore.
Its hard for me to be emotionally close to people now. Cos right that moment, something always happens that brings them away for me. Is it just me who's always this unlucky or is this one of God's never ending trials to see how I'm coping and surviving? It bothers me now that little little things in life matter to me alot alot more.
And dear God, please please please don't let it be true (whatever it is, it's only you and I know. let this be our little secret okay God?). I don't know how I'm going to do it or how I'm going to react if it truly happen. But if it has to happen, then I trust that you know what's best for me. You know the capacity of my own heart. You know my strengths and weaknesses. And yes, I suppose, you know me the best as well.
Walau dimana kita berada,
Kita masih bernafas udara yang sama.
Berpijak di bumi yang sama
Dan bila malam menjengah,
Kita pasti akan menatap bulan & bintang yang serupa...
Love always.
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