yes, no, maybe, I don't know.
POSTED ON: Sunday, September 25, 2011 @ 8:02 PM | 0 comments
hello world.
This will be my last post before Promos kick in next week. Alhamdullilah, preparations are on the way. I think, I feel quite confident for most of my subjects. Ingat amz, tak mahu lose focus alright. Go for your goals. They are within your grasp! Believe in yourself and breathe. Oh, and take care of your health as well cos you always had the tendency to fall sick nearer to your papers. Insyallah, you can do this. You have to promote and you will promote! (:
I was watching this malay drama yesterday - Jangan Benci Cinta. And somehow, it's so relatable to me. Like seriously, I think I'm one paranoid girl right now. I find it hard to believe people most of the times now. Almost every moment, I will wonder, can I trust you? But what if I trust then you will not turn out to be who I expected you to be? I know they say that you can't hope that people will turn out to be this image that you conjure up in your mind. It's just not real isn't it? Humans are complex individuals after all. No one human is the same.
Anyway, Mum mimicked this line to me yesterday when I told how I don't fancy Malay guys - 'No, lelaki Melayu. No, no, no.' Oh wells, it's not that I hated them to the core of my life or something. It's just that I find it hard to get along with them. Maybe it's cos I haven't found someone who is able to prove to me a new perspective, a different side about Malay guys. They will always be this Mat-looking types in my mind, I don't know why. Oh wells.
It's so hard to understand guys. And living with 2 of them at home - dad and brother still doesnt make me understand them fully. Me and mum have our amused moments most of the times trying to decipher what they really mean. It's like this whole confusion you know, one moment they said this and they meant this but actually, it was a whole different thing otherwise. Haiyo. Hahaha.
As I read my past diary entries, I realised that there were still many things that you do not know about me. Maybe that's why it's true that you said, sometimes you don't even know me at all. Hmm, in any case, I am just going to let things go with the flow. Because I wonder, who I am to you. What do I really mean in your life anyway... Only god knows. And only time will tell.
You know there's a saying that goes, there will be a point in time in life, where people will stop caring. Nopes, it's not because they don't care about you anymore but they just want you to know what it feels like when they're no longer around - to remind you, to annoy you, to irritate you and to pick up after you. And that's exactly what I am going to do right now. Maybe this will help me to confirm certain things in my mind. Oh wells, we'll see how things goes.
Don't you all worry for me okays.
Love always.
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