Chameleon
POSTED ON: Sunday, September 11, 2011 @ 2:37 PM | 0 comments
'I don't think that I really know you at all. It's so hard to read you, maliah.'
Really? Haha. Is it really difficult to truly understand the girl whose name is, Nur Amaliah? I thought that it's very easy to read me. Because, practically, i'm like an open book. You get to know me by the moods that I have and the tone and sarcasm that I use when I talk to you. But I guess, maybe it isn't applicable to us. Maybe, for us, it's not so true.
Even my close friend, Akhyar can quite read me. Haha. By the way I write already she seems to guess that something is amiss and that things are not okay. Talking about that, thanks for the concern beb. Friends like you are so rare these days and thus, too precious. Haha. So must keep you and treasure you as a friend. Hehe. (: Loveeeee you.
Siti also the same. Haha. Biler my tone dah change ajer, she can sense it. Inilah namanya teman sejati - yang selalu ada masa kita sunyi dan kesepian. Selalu ada untuk menghiburkan. Sama-sama ketawa bila kita gembira dan sama-sama menangis bila kita ditimpa kesedihan. Cheyyyhhhhs, berfalsafah lah pula. Haha. I don't know how my life will be if it is not for them. Thank you girlfriends. Love you alot alot.
You tell me that it's so difficult to know me and it's difficult to read me. So, most of the times you go by your intuition because I always hide what I'm feeling from you. I tried to appear strong and nonchalant but you know that I was hoping for a listening ear to hear me out. And the best thing is, you can sense when I'm not in my best of moods and when I seem to appear angry, annoyed, tired etc etc. And that my moods change very very very fast. One time, I could be that happy and high girl but the next moment, I could be bitter and pessimistic. Haha. Very geminian like - hehehe. Dual personalities.
Haha. Maybe that's why, you were always so tentative. Trying to tread on safe grounds...Maybe, its difficult to read me because I don't show all my cards upfront. I am not plain this or that. More of something homogenous. Sometimes, I tend to that nice side of my character. But, when I'm bitter, I can get really bitter and plain mean. I think I know why sometimes you're so confused when talking to me. Haha.
Can you imagine, a girl who gets so annoyed seeing someone she doesn't even want to meet and hated to the core of her life because of what that person did to her, can suddenly change her moods and be all nice back after she let it out. It's like this emotional burden - once released, all will be back to normal. Haha. And talking about that, you asked me if I did talk again with that certain someone.
My answer was simple, No. So, you asked again, you didn't forgive still is it? And I replied, I did. I am not that mean as to not forgive that person. Although, it hurts, sometimes. And that what that person did, indirectly affect my perceptions towards certain groups of people right now. But I forgive in my heart. However, I refuse to even look or talk to that person again because I don't want to have anything to do with that person again. Fair enough right? Haha. But you thought I was weird and you got lost when I tried to explain to you. How could it be that a person forgive but don't want to talk anymore?
Forgive doesn't mean forget remember? And forgive and forget can never ever go hand in hand. So, one at a time okay. I forgive first. The forget part uhh? Um, wait long long lah. After what that person did, it's still so difficult to forget. We are talking about trust issues here. And that's something big. Really big.
'I didn't know that you can be that harsh.' Oh wells. Only time will tell. Haha. Behind that sweet girl potrayal that I come across to people, I am one head strong girl. Headstrong, yes. Mean-spirited, no. Because after what that person did, he deserves this kind of treatment from me. Tolong, jangan mimpi yang kita akan be the best of pals lagi. Dan, jangan mimpi di siang hari, yang kita akan berbicara lagi. Simple as that.
It's interesting, you said. What's interesting, I replied. Me? And you said, yeahs. Lols. Am I really that fascinating as a storybook waiting to be explored and come to various conclusions by the reader? You said, It's like I can never really get bored because you are unpredictable.
Oh wells. You're a closed book yourself. Sometimes, I wonder on what basis is our friendship built upon. Always very guarded. Revealing to me only what you deem is safe and what you deem as okay. I will always have to play that guessing game, arent I? It's so difficult to get definite answers from you...
Love always.
Aku tidak pernah memilih dia sebagai pelindungku.
Kasih terhadapnya tidak pernah lebih daripada yang sepatutnya.
Sesungguhnya, dia tidak pernah ada dalam perancangan masa depanku.
Dia hanya seorang sahabat.
Aku tidak mampu bersaing dengan masa silam untuk terus melangkah ke hadapan.
Apakah matlamat hidup kita serupa, temanku? Walaupun segala-galanya jauh berbeza.
Mengapa dirimu aku jadikan sandaran - kala susah dan senangku?
Mengapa denganmu hati ini terbuka untuk berkongsi cerita suka dan duka?
Ada apa dengan dia yang menjadikan semuanya serba tak kena?
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Chameleon
POSTED ON: Sunday, September 11, 2011 @ 2:37 PM | 0 comments
'I don't think that I really know you at all. It's so hard to read you, maliah.'
Really? Haha. Is it really difficult to truly understand the girl whose name is, Nur Amaliah? I thought that it's very easy to read me. Because, practically, i'm like an open book. You get to know me by the moods that I have and the tone and sarcasm that I use when I talk to you. But I guess, maybe it isn't applicable to us. Maybe, for us, it's not so true.
Even my close friend, Akhyar can quite read me. Haha. By the way I write already she seems to guess that something is amiss and that things are not okay. Talking about that, thanks for the concern beb. Friends like you are so rare these days and thus, too precious. Haha. So must keep you and treasure you as a friend. Hehe. (: Loveeeee you.
Siti also the same. Haha. Biler my tone dah change ajer, she can sense it. Inilah namanya teman sejati - yang selalu ada masa kita sunyi dan kesepian. Selalu ada untuk menghiburkan. Sama-sama ketawa bila kita gembira dan sama-sama menangis bila kita ditimpa kesedihan. Cheyyyhhhhs, berfalsafah lah pula. Haha. I don't know how my life will be if it is not for them. Thank you girlfriends. Love you alot alot.
You tell me that it's so difficult to know me and it's difficult to read me. So, most of the times you go by your intuition because I always hide what I'm feeling from you. I tried to appear strong and nonchalant but you know that I was hoping for a listening ear to hear me out. And the best thing is, you can sense when I'm not in my best of moods and when I seem to appear angry, annoyed, tired etc etc. And that my moods change very very very fast. One time, I could be that happy and high girl but the next moment, I could be bitter and pessimistic. Haha. Very geminian like - hehehe. Dual personalities.
Haha. Maybe that's why, you were always so tentative. Trying to tread on safe grounds...Maybe, its difficult to read me because I don't show all my cards upfront. I am not plain this or that. More of something homogenous. Sometimes, I tend to that nice side of my character. But, when I'm bitter, I can get really bitter and plain mean. I think I know why sometimes you're so confused when talking to me. Haha.
Can you imagine, a girl who gets so annoyed seeing someone she doesn't even want to meet and hated to the core of her life because of what that person did to her, can suddenly change her moods and be all nice back after she let it out. It's like this emotional burden - once released, all will be back to normal. Haha. And talking about that, you asked me if I did talk again with that certain someone.
My answer was simple, No. So, you asked again, you didn't forgive still is it? And I replied, I did. I am not that mean as to not forgive that person. Although, it hurts, sometimes. And that what that person did, indirectly affect my perceptions towards certain groups of people right now. But I forgive in my heart. However, I refuse to even look or talk to that person again because I don't want to have anything to do with that person again. Fair enough right? Haha. But you thought I was weird and you got lost when I tried to explain to you. How could it be that a person forgive but don't want to talk anymore?
Forgive doesn't mean forget remember? And forgive and forget can never ever go hand in hand. So, one at a time okay. I forgive first. The forget part uhh? Um, wait long long lah. After what that person did, it's still so difficult to forget. We are talking about trust issues here. And that's something big. Really big.
'I didn't know that you can be that harsh.' Oh wells. Only time will tell. Haha. Behind that sweet girl potrayal that I come across to people, I am one head strong girl. Headstrong, yes. Mean-spirited, no. Because after what that person did, he deserves this kind of treatment from me. Tolong, jangan mimpi yang kita akan be the best of pals lagi. Dan, jangan mimpi di siang hari, yang kita akan berbicara lagi. Simple as that.
It's interesting, you said. What's interesting, I replied. Me? And you said, yeahs. Lols. Am I really that fascinating as a storybook waiting to be explored and come to various conclusions by the reader? You said, It's like I can never really get bored because you are unpredictable.
Oh wells. You're a closed book yourself. Sometimes, I wonder on what basis is our friendship built upon. Always very guarded. Revealing to me only what you deem is safe and what you deem as okay. I will always have to play that guessing game, arent I? It's so difficult to get definite answers from you...
Love always.
Aku tidak pernah memilih dia sebagai pelindungku.
Kasih terhadapnya tidak pernah lebih daripada yang sepatutnya.
Sesungguhnya, dia tidak pernah ada dalam perancangan masa depanku.
Dia hanya seorang sahabat.
Aku tidak mampu bersaing dengan masa silam untuk terus melangkah ke hadapan.
Apakah matlamat hidup kita serupa, temanku? Walaupun segala-galanya jauh berbeza.
Mengapa dirimu aku jadikan sandaran - kala susah dan senangku?
Mengapa denganmu hati ini terbuka untuk berkongsi cerita suka dan duka?
Ada apa dengan dia yang menjadikan semuanya serba tak kena?
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