battling out those unspoken stories
POSTED ON: Thursday, November 13, 2008 @ 9:15 AM | 0 comments
hey.okayy HARYATI! its all done. dah habis dah aku buat survey kau. aku ingat its all those long questions macam hui hui nyer. aper lahh. hahaha. LOL. somebody give me more of that surveys. please... (dah. dah start aku nyer manja. haha.)
so, yesterday i said i couldnt forgive. tapi takperlahh. ive given it much thought the whole of yesterday night. night times are the best times when i cry and do my thinking. hehe. oh wells, i guess after all that has happened. i will forgive. there. i said it. i have to accept that fact that no one is perfect. so yeahs. lets just begin a new book. im referring to myself as an individual. not anyone else. i need to shut this horrid tale and begin a new one. after all this, now i know why fairy tales with 'happy ever after' just dont exist in reality. but forgiving doesnt mean forgetting. and forgiving doesnt mean not hating. so just dont expect more. okay, dah. end this topic. :D
im thankful to have all my love ones with me at times where i really need them. pulling me up slowly yet confidently. trying really hard to give back that manja smile that used to be on my face. a sincere smile like before. and they also really tried hard to give back the melodious and hearty laughter that used to be mine. haha. thanks a lot angels. im overcoming it. eyy, i want to be strong woman lahh. haha. jia youuss AMALIAH! well, seeing me who always had constant break down these days i cant help but wonder that i changed too. somehow.
Amaliah when she's in primary school:
- shy and not outspoken (when in primary 1)
- serious and strict. (when in primary 5 and 6)
- doesnt really break down easily
- close with Siti and some others
- i dont really bother with those guy-girl thing.
- haha. she's kecoh only when she's with her close friends.
Amaliah when she's in secondary school:
- cry a lot; especially lately
- more organised.
- more outspoken and frank to the people around her
- serious, at times. strict, at times.
- kecoh, loves to laugh easily
- becoming more and more manja. really.
- when upset, i tend to become more workaholic. haha.
See? i guess i couldnt blame people if they change. because i change too. somehow. its just that what matters, you have to know whether you change for the better or for the worst where people dont even 'recognise' the used to be you anymore. hahaha.
im really smiling now, not the fake weak uncertain smile these days.
im okay thanks to a lot of people. you guys mean a lot to me.
i've got to move on and be who i am.
i miss the smiling me and kecoh me who never fail to irritate.
i got to do what's right for me.
BYE.
"Kalau takut dilambung ombak, jangan berumah di tepi pantai."
- it means that: if you're afraid of the consequences, just dont risk doing it.
i know better now.
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