Unwritten promises & unanswered questions.
POSTED ON: Friday, June 24, 2011 @ 2:27 PM | 0 comments
hello everyone.
so maybe, they're right. i do seem a bit distracted these days. even aleem thinks so too. he says im physically here but when i talk to him, i don't know, he says that i got lost in the conversation. maybe its just the exams having its effects on me. oh wells, ive been pretty stressed up about alot of things lately. but, MUST STAY STRONG. okay, nur amaliah?
sometimes, i feel really stupid. why venture to that place that have brought so many good memories with you previously? its like kinda, suicidal to be honest. because, when you're there, like really there, your mind drifted off to the memory lane searching for that moment before it becomes a memory. and to be honest, its sad. i don't know why i'm doing it. therapy perhaps? so that i can move on? lols. you'll never know amaliah and her crazy, random, unplanned ideas. i think its just luck that the people around me has to put up with my randomness. oh gosh.
so, when me and akh had some random idea for a new story yesterday, i tried to focus and type. because usually, the words flow without much difficulty. but yesterday, thanks to all the names, i just stayed glued to the screen, unable to write a single thing. its like my mind is all jammed up over there. i can't breathe and i cannot bring myself to say those names. i don't know what feeling this is but its really intoxicating me. i tried to take my minds off by visiting the places that i love but i don't know why the feeling is different. way, way different.
anyway, forget it. i'm never going to visit memory lane again. ive had enough. maybe, its time i build walls so that only certain people can enter. im giving up on you.
love always.
PS: yes, that should be the case. but why is it i keep feeling the opposite?
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Unwritten promises & unanswered questions.
POSTED ON: Friday, June 24, 2011 @ 2:27 PM | 0 comments
hello everyone.
so maybe, they're right. i do seem a bit distracted these days. even aleem thinks so too. he says im physically here but when i talk to him, i don't know, he says that i got lost in the conversation. maybe its just the exams having its effects on me. oh wells, ive been pretty stressed up about alot of things lately. but, MUST STAY STRONG. okay, nur amaliah?
sometimes, i feel really stupid. why venture to that place that have brought so many good memories with you previously? its like kinda, suicidal to be honest. because, when you're there, like really there, your mind drifted off to the memory lane searching for that moment before it becomes a memory. and to be honest, its sad. i don't know why i'm doing it. therapy perhaps? so that i can move on? lols. you'll never know amaliah and her crazy, random, unplanned ideas. i think its just luck that the people around me has to put up with my randomness. oh gosh.
so, when me and akh had some random idea for a new story yesterday, i tried to focus and type. because usually, the words flow without much difficulty. but yesterday, thanks to all the names, i just stayed glued to the screen, unable to write a single thing. its like my mind is all jammed up over there. i can't breathe and i cannot bring myself to say those names. i don't know what feeling this is but its really intoxicating me. i tried to take my minds off by visiting the places that i love but i don't know why the feeling is different. way, way different.
anyway, forget it. i'm never going to visit memory lane again. ive had enough. maybe, its time i build walls so that only certain people can enter. im giving up on you.
love always.
PS: yes, that should be the case. but why is it i keep feeling the opposite?
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