Falling into pieces, everytime
POSTED ON: Saturday, July 30, 2011 @ 8:43 AM | 0 comments
good morning.
today is going to be a long busy day. gosh. there's lit mock test at college today. afterwards, there's PW meeting at Tampines East CC with groupmates and Oon. Gosh. I got so many things to do, yet i have so little time. *moans* And there's maths to do and lit practice. And that rajaratnam major project for service learning. Gosh. Life as a jc student is really tough, mind you.
Oh, and why did i even raise my hands yesterday at CC meeting when they asked who could be one of the emcees for the sing-a-long for NDP? Ahh. I would probably just humiliate myself on stage. Leading the college to sing national day songs. Like wtf. Anyway, let's just see how it goes. It might have been fun. Heh. Well, who knows.
Visited Raudhah Hani at home yesterday. Its so surreal to call her Raudhah or Hani when I used to just call her lil one. Oh, and tak sangka, my 'sister' got daughter already. How fast time flies. And like Kak Mel, i decided to call her Hani. She's so cute and loud and pretty, that lil one. Haha. Oh, and like what I told them yesterday, I already booked Hani for my flower girl in my future wedding- to- be -with -I -don't -know- who. Hehehe. Okay, perasan. Stop it, amz.
I don't know why but school always cheers me up these days. Like ohmygosh. I think it's cos i learnt to give myself chances and not to be trapped in old memories forever. Haha. Maybe, what mum says is right. Now, isn't the right time for me to get tied down to that one person. I should enjoy teenage life while it lasted and Im glad that I listened to her and live it the way i want it to be. There's no point nursing a broken heart, trying to heal those wounds when I could just choose to forget everything and start afresh. Yes, life has its ups and downs and im gonna be a brave soul and pull through those down times. Aren't you proud of me?
I am glad that i could feel again. Hahaha. Those butterflies in the stomach, adrenaline rush and the feeling when you just want to do a cartwheel. Its been ages since I feel that anticipation and those heart racing moments. School gives me back every single one of them and I am so glad for that. Hehehe. (: I think it's fine so long as you don't know that i exist. And im not even planning to let you know it cos it wont be that fun anymore. Haha. Oh, and if what she says is true yesterday, that means, my guesses have been right all along. Hmm, telepathy much. Heh.
And certain people are really annoying me. Gosh. Are they seriously testing my patience? Trust me, you won't like it when I am all so worked up when all this while you saw me keeping my cool. Once I erupt, there's no turning back. And yeahs, I was on the verge of screaming the other day. And Syu finally saw how I look like when i am super angry and irritated. Haha. He was shocked himself. See? Its really that bad. So please, I beg you, understand simple english or malay. Don't put my patience to its limits. Don't force me to do things which I already tell you I won't do it. There's nothing that you will do that will change my mind back - yes, i am THAT stubborn. You won't like it when Im angry. Really.
Love always.
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Falling into pieces, everytime
POSTED ON: Saturday, July 30, 2011 @ 8:43 AM | 0 comments
good morning.
today is going to be a long busy day. gosh. there's lit mock test at college today. afterwards, there's PW meeting at Tampines East CC with groupmates and Oon. Gosh. I got so many things to do, yet i have so little time. *moans* And there's maths to do and lit practice. And that rajaratnam major project for service learning. Gosh. Life as a jc student is really tough, mind you.
Oh, and why did i even raise my hands yesterday at CC meeting when they asked who could be one of the emcees for the sing-a-long for NDP? Ahh. I would probably just humiliate myself on stage. Leading the college to sing national day songs. Like wtf. Anyway, let's just see how it goes. It might have been fun. Heh. Well, who knows.
Visited Raudhah Hani at home yesterday. Its so surreal to call her Raudhah or Hani when I used to just call her lil one. Oh, and tak sangka, my 'sister' got daughter already. How fast time flies. And like Kak Mel, i decided to call her Hani. She's so cute and loud and pretty, that lil one. Haha. Oh, and like what I told them yesterday, I already booked Hani for my flower girl in my future wedding- to- be -with -I -don't -know- who. Hehehe. Okay, perasan. Stop it, amz.
I don't know why but school always cheers me up these days. Like ohmygosh. I think it's cos i learnt to give myself chances and not to be trapped in old memories forever. Haha. Maybe, what mum says is right. Now, isn't the right time for me to get tied down to that one person. I should enjoy teenage life while it lasted and Im glad that I listened to her and live it the way i want it to be. There's no point nursing a broken heart, trying to heal those wounds when I could just choose to forget everything and start afresh. Yes, life has its ups and downs and im gonna be a brave soul and pull through those down times. Aren't you proud of me?
I am glad that i could feel again. Hahaha. Those butterflies in the stomach, adrenaline rush and the feeling when you just want to do a cartwheel. Its been ages since I feel that anticipation and those heart racing moments. School gives me back every single one of them and I am so glad for that. Hehehe. (: I think it's fine so long as you don't know that i exist. And im not even planning to let you know it cos it wont be that fun anymore. Haha. Oh, and if what she says is true yesterday, that means, my guesses have been right all along. Hmm, telepathy much. Heh.
And certain people are really annoying me. Gosh. Are they seriously testing my patience? Trust me, you won't like it when I am all so worked up when all this while you saw me keeping my cool. Once I erupt, there's no turning back. And yeahs, I was on the verge of screaming the other day. And Syu finally saw how I look like when i am super angry and irritated. Haha. He was shocked himself. See? Its really that bad. So please, I beg you, understand simple english or malay. Don't put my patience to its limits. Don't force me to do things which I already tell you I won't do it. There's nothing that you will do that will change my mind back - yes, i am THAT stubborn. You won't like it when Im angry. Really.
Love always.
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