hello everyone.

mood was really, really good today. (: because, mine and akhyar's noshin putri article came out in the papers this morning. Berita Harian. Got to admit, that it feels really great to see my work on paper. Satisfaction, i swear. (: So, hopefully, nothing bad will happen to ruin this nice feeling for me today okay?

Anyways, im no longer hoping that you'll come back or something. I think, i've truly lost hope in that already. But alhamdullilah, God gave me the strength to cope without you. Its been many many many days and at least, im proud to admit that i can cope with it. Even though sometimes, during some days when i feel so down, i just feel that i can't do this anymore, but now i think its better for me to train my heart for whatever it is that might happen in the future. Having my close friends and family help though. They are the people that i seek comfort and solace in apart from god, of course.  I can't continue denying and living in a world full of maybe things - things that might or might not even happen. Its not worth it. Whatever it is, if its mean to be, I believe that it will always find its way. No matter what. There's no use pining for something that might not even happen. Because you know what? Waiting for you is like waiting for rain during the drought. Useless and disappointing. I deserve some happiness too alright?

I miss miss miss cupid.

I miss how we can be so random about it.

as if yes, cupid does exist between us.

Him shooting arrows to always fill me with love.

And he who will always stay next to me everytime i cry.

I believe he's still out there somewhere.

And I believe that cupid will return home.

PS: probably, he has a mission out there or something. After the mission than, he will return home. Nonsense amz. Well, who knows? Right? But somehow, something in me tells me that cupid is not returning and that i have to survive on my own. I can do it! Not.